Welcome to SR hobbit! I'm glad you're taking a look at what drinking is doing to your health. I was older, too, when I finally had to let go of my life long habit. It felt strange at first - but now I'm so thankful to be free of it.
You can do this! We're happy you found us - this is a great place for support.
You are so much more than the worst thing you've ever done. Fr. Greg Boyle
A little voice deep inside me said, "Hello, I am here." It was a small voice, & sounded as if it were buried underneath the cushions of my couch. It was my soul...I had forgotten it.