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Old 04-29-2013, 02:01 AM
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poopy day :-(

Today sucked. The one friend I trusted to tell about this is also a girl I work with.she is mad at me over such a stupid thing and now won't talk to me and is bitching.she has behaved like the before and I've always blamed myself.with a clear head I 100% know its her issue not mine.but I'm gutted for being stupid enough to trust her with this information because I'm sort of feeling like we really aren't friends.im hoping she doesn't go around telling people what I've told her out of anger. I know this seems petty but I work with her 12 hours a day and its a small group of women rebound for being bitchy :-\ feel like we need a few males in the building.anyways I came close to stopping for wine.i thought about it all day.but I was scared I would say something stupid to her when I was drunk.not a good enough reason not to drink, but whatevs it works for me today, so sweet! Day 10 was dumb.
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Old 04-29-2013, 02:42 AM
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Hang in there, i too work in a predominently female environment, 12 hr shifts and it sucks. Women are so bitchy. Remember its her issue not yours and drinking will only let yourself down, it matters not one toss to her. Be strong, il be rooting for you over here in England!! xx
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Good on ya. In my early days of AA I had the idea that because I stopped drinking EVERY THING/BODY would be good. Wrong I got better but [email protected] still happens and we mostly can't fix it, only ourselves. I used to think I was being tested. BE WELL
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Old 04-29-2013, 02:57 AM
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Thanku fruity.im always wondering why women are so awful to other women and today is another one of those days.i wish I could think of happier things instead rather than nastiness and alcohol!thanks for ur support x
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That's funny visch because I did feel a little like I was being tested today.and the other day I felt like I was being rewarded.when I guess in reality its just life.but its hard not to think that way!
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Animalnurse, I really hope this girl does not betray your trust, but whatever happens you need to stay resolute about your sobriety. Do you really want this person to be the one to cause you to drink? That gives her a power over you she doesn't warrant.

I have never been comfortable in the company of women, preferring the simplicity of men's emotional state ( any men reading this, I don't mean you are simple) rather than the bitchy duplicitous nature of so many women. I always felt that I was in a competition I had no desire to be in, where winning or losing were all that mattered and cheating was fine as long as you didn't get caught!

You are better than that, rise above it all and keep posting here, where you have a loving, safe, none judgemental home.
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people can so mean.hang in there girl!
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Thanku, I will I really wanted to post earlier but couldn't at work.i hope she doesn't betray me, but at the same time it would make her the mean person not me.i don't feel so ashamed of my alcoholism anymore since I've been posting here, just worried about ppls reactions.id prefer it stay quiet.i feel the same about the culture of competition etc among women! Although there are some really nice ones here
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Congrats on Day 10!

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In my early days of AA I had the idea that because I stopped drinking EVERY THING/BODY would be good.
I kind of felt this way but more along the lines that I would be more tolerant with specific people and they would not get on my nerves but that is not the case...lol

Now I have to think of how I react to other people rather than how they behave.

Life happens!

I work with 99% women but I have always been the kind that kept to myself. I know there is a boat load of drama and gossip were I work but I stay out if it. Many times that means losing out on important changes in the work place as they tell us nothing, but I feel it is worth it. I say Hi and I may talk about my not so exciting weekend or they may talk about theirs but other than that I keep my head down and work.

I lost a job I had after 17 1/2 years. There is no loyalty. I may sound bitter and I guess I am but I go to work to work. Not make friends. If someone comes to me with some gossip I just listen. I never add in and I never spread it on. I hate drama.
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Old 04-29-2013, 03:36 AM
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No, u don't sound bitter at all, u sound smart! I don't like drama either or mean gossip.because its a small team, it comes at u from all angles. I'd love to b able to just switch off when it starts! Maybe that's something I should practice. Losing a job after that long is awful! I've been at mine 6years and would b gutted if that happened.i thought things would b easier lol but I'm so happy I had a clear head and no hangover to deal with on top of this drama!
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