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Old 04-21-2013, 10:20 PM
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My unhealthy ways

This final attempt at sobriety has led me into certain behaviors that are not my norm or the way that I want to operate in my life. First of all, something really switched in me with my last drink. I knew after that night that I had gone the farthest that I have ever gone and there was no return. I had to put down the destruction or die. So, i walked away from Alcohol into another destructive thing.......
I have always cared about my diet. Eating healthy is a huge part of who I am. My career ( if you could call it that) revolved around health, educating people on health, suggesting herbs/vitamins to the masses. People trusted my opinions and I felt confident in giving away the knowledge that I had aquired.
So, for the last month and a half I have left all my health behind and all that I know is true. I have consciously decided to eat everything that is unhealthy. Skittles, Diet Coke, Cookies, Skittles, Starbursts, Pot Pies, Vitamin Waters, Muffins, Corned Beef and Cheese, Jimboys, Pot Pies, Coffee, Coffee, Skittles, Snickers, Cookies, Skittles.......Did I mention Skittles. Pizza, Grilled Cheese, Huge Chocolate Chip Cookies. Smoking Cigarettes.
I am sick of this now. I thought that if I wrote it out maybe it would snap me out of this behavior. This is not me at all.
I have heart burn from the corned beef, swiss cheese croissant that i ate earlier. I physically feel like a blob even though my weight is the same.
Time to dust off the blender. Time to get the greens going again. Thanks for letting me express myself. I will not heal if I continue down this path.
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Old 04-21-2013, 10:23 PM
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First, no one ever got arrested for driving while fat. However, if a healthy lifestyle is important to you, be in integrity with that too. Go easy on yourself!
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Old 04-21-2013, 10:27 PM
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Originally Posted by sammy1974 View Post
First, no one ever got arrested for driving while fat. However, if a healthy lifestyle is important to you, be in integrity with that too. Go easy on yourself!
Yes, I think that writing it out is helpful. I have been easy with myself....a little to relaxed in the nutrition department. So, I am stepping it up a notch as of tonight.
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Old 04-21-2013, 10:48 PM
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Ah, ok, this is funny. On one of your other threads you were talking about a demo job, and my brain turned that into "demolition". I figured you were one tough lady if your work was doing demolitions! And I couldn't imagine a demolition contractor that let checks bounce. That sounded like lawsuits a-plenty to me!

Now I get it. Demonstration. That makes more sense.

Sorry to butt in... just wanted to poke fun at myself for believing my brain
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Old 04-21-2013, 10:51 PM
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I think most of us go a bit junk food crazy - I did.
Most of us snap back to normality after a month or two

(I didn't...but thats a whole other thread lol...)

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Old 04-21-2013, 11:31 PM
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Originally Posted by Dee74 View Post
I think most of us go a bit junk food crazy - I did.
Most of us snap back to normality after a month or two

(I didn't...but thats a whole other thread lol...)

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That's so funny Dee....I must admit I was wondering when the junk food fad would pass for me too....!!
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Old 04-22-2013, 12:55 AM
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I don't think you're the only one who has done this Mizzuno. Part of it for me was doing something naughty, a 'if I'm not going to drinking I'm going to eat what I like' attitude. And part of it was physical in that I was ravenous when I first got sober. I'm a bona fide sugar addict now. My major problem is mints. I probably spend as much on them as I did on smoking. Money is another factor. I felt like the money I was spending on drink was burning a hole in my pocket so I would spend it on nice stuff to eat. Also Junk food is the only thing I don't associate with wine, so for a while it was my only 'safe' food. Well, they're my excuses anyway. It is something I am aware of and fully intend to tackle, bit like I did with drinking for years and years
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I put on 40 lbs in the first 16 months of sobriety and have lost 30 lbs in the last 3 months .
For me food was a longer term though less instantly fatal problem than alcohol . We can only do, what we can do, one day at a time .

You're very strong and bright Mizz, put your mind to it and i'm sure things will change

Bestwishes, M
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Mizz... I have been doing the same. I now the heaviest I have ever been in my life. I say to myself that if iI am going to control drinking then I dont have to control anything else. I tell myself I need to let something go.

This morning I am looking forward to a sauages egg and cheese... extra cheese on a soft roll for breakfast. I wont say no to myself with food.
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Old 04-22-2013, 10:17 AM
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Well, Ive been eating a lot too.
There's a book I found that can really influence your perception of food. It's not a diet book or a nutrition book. It's actually a book that is like a long informative article in a magazine. A good read as they say.
Really helps to see food in a different light.
"Salt Sugar Fat"
by Michael Moss
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We went food shopping. The fridge is filled with all the usual suspects. No skittles, no cookies the size of my head, no extra sugary drinks......juicing materials are ready to be juiced. Not only is it important for me not to drink, it is also important that I physically feel healthy with energy. I'm making my way back.
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Yay! Go girl!
Thanks for the inspiration!
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It is funny but I do tend to eat sweets more often. However I grab a salad for lunch to off set those great cookies. I sound like the Cookie Monster
COOKIES. Lol
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Old 04-23-2013, 08:26 PM
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I thought I was the only one who gained weight after quitting! I was sure after I stopped the weight would melt off me - but I took in more calories than ever. I did calm it down a little - got tired of most of the bad stuff & ditched it. All except the ice cream. Do not mess with my ice cream.
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