wish4sobriety

Hi everyone. I'm Rachel and I'm married to an addict. We have 2 children ages 2 (almost 3 and 7 months) My husband and I have been together for 10 years and married for 4. He was an addict before we got together however I was unaware. He OD'ed once a year before we got together and was in a coma for a while. He then went to a place called Teen Challenge. This was when he was maybe 25 or so. He got sober for a while but about 3-4 months after we started living together he started using again. He started with cocaine, then moved to Ecstacy for about a year while adding in crack. Soon he stopped using Ecstacy and only used crack. This went on from 2003 until 2006/7. Then he stopped when I got pregnant. Our daughter was 3 months early and lived in the hospital 4 months before passing away. He was smoking pot while our daughter was sick in the hospital. He didn't stop and smoke pot for the next few years. Got pregnant again and our 2nd daughter was stillborn when I was 8 months pregnant. Then from the time I lost her and got pregnant again with our 3rd child he continued to smoke pot and use Ecstacy (only a couple times). He also would drink beer almost nightly. We had our son in 2010 and he kept smoking pot until I fussed enough about it. He stopped and I was so happy. But he started drinking more, and more and more. I fussed about that and he slacked off but then turned to prescription drugs. He was taking lortab but mostly xanax. He has blacked out and just gets really angry. We now have a 2nd daughter and his drug use has become increasingly worse since about october of last year. I fear one of our kids will pick up a dropped pill or other drug and it will kill them. Recently in March he brought MDA into the house and I took the kids to my dad's and stayed for about a week. I took him to a rehab to get him checked into a program. They suggested an IOP treatment for 4 months. I came back home and he found every excuse NOT to go. He said he wouldn't use anymore. I believed him yet again....silly I know and I even went back to work for the 1st time in 3 years. He was using xanax again and driving our kids around while I was working. Since that happened he has moved out to his parents house and I'm staying in our home raising our kids. He is staying there until he finished a treatment program. This has been a long road. I love him and want us to work be I never really trust him. Our marriage has really taken a blow because of this. I'm thinking of seeking therapy for myself too.

Really not sure what to say other than I'm looking for some support.

least

If you're looking for support you came to the right place. We're here to support you in your journey to peace of mind. Counseling is a good idea. I see a counselor and it's a lot of help.

We have a "friends and family" forum for people in your situation. Give it a look and post your questions and vent when you need to.

Friends and Family of Substance Abusers - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

bigaquagirl

Wellcome Rachel.
You have come to the right place.

Richierich777

Welcome and as stated they is a friends and family area to post. I hope everything works out for the best

Mizzuno

Welcome. There is a lot of support here for you. I think that your idea to attend therapy is wonderful. Keep posting and reading. We are all here for you.

SeekSobriety

Thank you for sharing your story with us. It sounds like you have both been through a awful lot. I would really suggest getting counseling yourself as well as getting some couples counseling. It is certainly something that can be deeply beneficial. Thanks again for sharing.