escapist

My last drink was October 14 2012. I could'nt have done it without SoberRecovery. Thank you. I am trying to learn about myself. When I am full of bullsh-t and when I am being honest. What is it about myself I can't look at without needing to get drunk? What am I running from? Pain and fear. I never learned how to effectively protect myself when I was growing up. Hiding is not the same thing. Rebellion is not independence and conceit is not confidence. Drinking is not coping with anything , it is copping out. It is hard to be courageous if you grow up scared.
I have to learn how to be a "grown up" after I have long past the age of consent. This is normally where I throw in the towel and decide I dont have the balls to change the way I handle responsibility and relationships. I know I will just end up back where I was. There's a good thing about living into your 50s. I have finally learned a few facts of life.

MidnightBlue

Hey, Escapist!

Congratulations of six months, my sobriety twin!

I can relate to what you said, I'm still learning to be courageous as well. But when we face fear it can run for the hills, when we hide from it - it's chasing us.

Don't throw the towel, get your gloves ready

Have a great day!

Gilmer

There's nothing you can't handle, Escapist! You've already gotten through the hard part. We are always here to support you, no matter what the problem.

sugarbear1

Congratulations!!!!!!

Anna

Great post, Escapist!

Odelle

Congratulations Escapist, six months is an awesome achievement. As I have read over and over, sobriety isn't about abstinence, it's about discovering the reason why we drank alcoholically in the first place (mental/emotional/spiritual escape) and I believe a lot of self-identification and discovery is the key to that answer. You seem to be on the right path!

Natom

Congratulations on your six months escapist

Natom.

Opivotal

Congratulations escapist 6 months is terrific!




Best Wishes To You!

Dee74

congratulations Escapist - awesome stuff

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soberlicious

So very very proud of you. You are an awesome woman.

ps...No towel throwing allowed!!

xo

Impurrfect

Congratulations!!

Hugs and prayers,

Amy

FreeFall

Congrats to both Escapist and Midnight Blue!! 6 months is a major accomplishment-good for you both!

FlyerFan

CONGRATS! It is so good to see all of the improvements on this site. One day you see someone new and struggling, and a few short months later they join the ranks of those who are happy joyous and free.

raja12

Congrats to you! That's great.

Stewart888

My last drink was October 14 2012...and me October 1st 2012 so know how great you must feel about life and your self.....we will get one year under our belt.....)))))

Good going buddy!

soberclover

Six months is so great....it shows the seriousness of your choice of sobriety to make healthy life changes! Such a great great great thing!

Received

Congratulations, Escapist. Your post really hit home for me in so many ways.

I think the most difficult part for me was how hard it is to be courageous as I grew up living in constant fear.

13 years without drinking and it was fear that came back around and I gave up, gave in and drank. Where it came to my kids I was a lioness protecting her cubs but when it came to myself I was a little girl who lived in a constant state of anxiety and terror.

So, thank you for your post, it reminds me how much I did grow and how much more I can grow and move past the fear that has run my life.

instant

Love the summary. Inspirational. Congratulations on your time

Hevyn

I hear you on the living into your 50's & finally learning some things. Who knew we would finally get it right! Proud of your accomplishment, escapist. Life will continue to get even better.