paws p.a.w.s PAWS!!!!
 

Ughhh!, I'm so sick of it! I'mg still in the I want what I want when I want it stage and I seriously want it over now! Somedays I don't know if I'm coming or going I need some serenity for real God help me is what I wanna scream at times. 5minutes at a time for me somedays...I'm still hanging on though.

I have no idea how long youve been sober.. But it took me months before the fog began to lift..

And still have to take it by the minutes sometimes.. the differance now, is I have a defense against the first drink... :)

And you do realize most cases of P.A.W.S start around 6 months to a year... ;)

Yup shaking my head I'm aware it gets better I've noticed ...its just the inconsistency that bothers me

Hang in there friend i know howyou feel cos im walking a similar path

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Thanks everyone I'm hanging on tightly especially after these last two days full of triggers emotions I went on my first road trip sober over the weekend which was real nice and smooth. The hard part was saying good bye till next time to my ex who has terminal stage 4 or 5 cancer ...that was hard. Even though we're still friends And see each other once a month sometimes longer its still hard dealing with hum seeing him sick, we were a beautiful team when we were sober we allowed alcohol and drugs and the deception and mistrust that comes along with that, sabbatoge our relationship ....it sucks really bad we had a beautiful relationship I want back what my addiction stole from me!
(Climbing back up through the fog on 4-16-13