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Old 04-12-2013, 06:42 AM
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Daily Victory

Today, YES Today is day 22 of sobriety.
I can not tell you how amazing I feel.
I was thinking last night since I still have issues with sleeping, what am I thankful for? I mean, you always hear people say: Make a "Gratitude to lighten your attitude" List. At first, I could only come up with 5 or 6 things that I was thankful for however, last night I could not stop writing. Without a drink in my hand I have found Newness in Life. I can think more clearly, have casual conversations without having a constant pressure of craving alcohol. I can genuinely hug my kids and tell them, "I AM and WILL be here for you NO MATTER WHAT." I actually have been crying. I DO NOT CRY and I mean at all. I can not remember the last time i cried. For example: I noticed a few days ago that I was sitting in my truck with my kids, I looked at them and I started to cry. Than a bird was flying near by; I started to cry. A HARD ROCK SONG would come over the radio and I WOULD CRY... I was even sitting in starbucks yesterday evening writing in my journal, listening to music and drinking coffee, and I cried. I kept thinking, "What in the hell is wrong with me?" A really good friend of mine, sister really allowed me to fall on my ass this last go around. She did not walk away from me, but she put her hands up in the air and took a few steps back. We are talking more now than in the beginning... Those first couple of weeks she wanted me to learn to depend on God instead of people... anyway, last night I texted her and said, "Why am I an emotional hot mess? I'm becoming a Pan-ZZZZZZ and I hate it..." I will not forget what she said, "That's the beauty behind being free. You actually feel emotion, even though sometimes it really hurts. That's just the part of learning to cope sober. Remember to equal out your tears with laughter. It will come, but feel free to welcome it!" I just wanted to share my daily progression.
If you do not know where to beginning on making a Gratitude list, I am sharing mine to help you get started!
Gratitude List ... (84 to be exact) ... more to soon follow:
1.) A higher power (God),
2.) Hannah and Jonathan
3.) Friends,
4.) Apartment,
5.) Sanity,
6.) A choice,
7.) Solution,
8.) Prayer,
9.) Meditation,
10.) Church
11.)Ability to take care of my family,
12.) A voice/opinion,
13.) Compassion,
14.) Humor,
15.) Laughter,
16.) All four seasons,
17.) My cat,
18.) Clean water,
19.) Work,
20.) Ability to learn/remain teachable,
21.) Mad grilling skills : ),
22.) Art skills,
23.) Patience (when I have it),
24.) Good-clean food to eat and share,
25.) Sharing,
26.) My sobriety,
27.) Ability to start my day over at any time, remind myself what is the next right thing to do (gives me forgiveness when I mess up).....
28.) Bubble Baths
29.) Enthusiasm,
30.) Sense of adventure,
31.) Fishing,
32.) Fish fry's,
33.) Hunting,
34.) Sport shooting,
35.) Long walks,
36.) Work ethic,
37.) Honesty,
38.) Integrity,
39.) Mental health
40.) Fresh air to breathe,
41.) Second (and third) chances,
42.) Air conditioning,
43.) Checking account (when there is money actually in it)
44.) COFFEE, COFFEE, COFFEE
45.) Hearing,
46.) Eyesight,
47.) Spelling and grammar
48.) Bible,
49.) Jesus Christ,
50.) Rain,
51.) Rock music,
52.) Country music,
53.) Education,
54.) My two legs,
55.) Ability to forgive,
56.) Forgiveness from others
57.) Flip flops,
58.) My bed,
59.) The American flag,
60.) My country,
61.) Military,
62.) Freedom
63.) Technology,
64.) Thunderstorms,
65.) Electricity,
66.) My truck,
67.) Choices,
68.) Pedicures,
69.) The gift of caring,
70.) Good friends
71.) My health,
72.) The sunshine,
73.) Life experiences,
74.) Rainbows,
75.) Beaches,
76.) Unconditional love,
77.) Grace,
78.) Mercy,
79.) Hope,
80.) Desire,
81.) Challenges,
82.) Tattoos,
83.) Cowboy boots,
84.) Ability to fall and get back up again

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Old 04-12-2013, 08:35 AM
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#44 for sure!!!

Congrats on 22 days. That is amazing and inspiring.
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Old 04-12-2013, 02:07 PM
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I like a good coffee. Well maybe several a day lol. Good for you and keep us posted
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