bluecloud12

hello,
My husband is addicted to pain pills and i guess anything he can get his hands on seeing i have found 2 xanax in the past month that he has hid. he was addicted to meth back in 97 until about 2000. now this. we have been married 25 yrs and the whole time i have been with him it has been something. why cant he just be normal? we have two adult kids. but he does not see a problem. see, he needs knee surgery and has been going to a pain clinic, before the drs around our town finally stopped giving him pills. he will take them all up before a new prescription is due and then looks for them elsewhere. to the point he was spending our car payments and my car got repoed from my job. i just dont know how much longer i can take it. i have ate myself to 200 pounds with all the stress. so unhappy. he says when he gets the surgery he will stop. i dont believe that crap for a minute. i feel lost , hurt , alone, depressed , and he could care less.. all he thinks about is himself.