pimpjuice

I've been trying for two years to quit and falling down the same routine. Quit for a bit and try moderation, then recently did two weeks living healthy and going to the gym and on Sunday I messed up. The morning I drank and later that night and today I'm drinking my last beer and going to attempt quitting again.

I think I lost my GF, avoided meeting up with her cause I was drinking and I'm scared to tell her I have a problem. Its a violent war I have with alcohol, I love being sober I get things done and enjoy my day but somehow I keep going back its depressing and I hate myself today.

I've never tried AA but I emailed a couple emails I found for my city today so hopefully all works out well because I don't really have anybody anymore since I stopped partying. I just needed to rant because I have no where else to go

FeenixxRising

I suspect AA is a good option. If you've made it to two weeks you can make it to three weeks, and the four and then . . .

Dee74

Hi and welcome

I think the key is to try something different, to add to what you've been doing - so trying AA definitely fits the bill there

You'll find a lot of support here too - personally, I found it a lot harder to decide to drink when I was reading and posting here everyday...you really get a sense of what that decision really means that way.

good to have you join us
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HappyAccidents

Trust me, you can get past two weeks, just requires a little more effort.
Good luck!

pimpjuice

Yeah I think I might of destroyed a relationship cause of this problem... I just want this night to end and start off fresh. I tried to make it to my car today but the anxiety took over badly.

I thought I could do this myself but I'm having doubts.. thx for the kind replies

HappyAccidents

I destroyed a relationship/friendship the other day too. Don't beat yourself up, it's sadly par for the course. I'm familiar with the anxiety, sadly.

Taking5

AA is not a moderation group. The idea is to quit totally. Just show up at a meeting. Most groups do not even have email addresses, just a date and time of their regularly scheduled meetings.