Woo-hoo! I'm just so happy! I really, really didnt know if Id be able to do it in the beginning.
And its so different from what I thought. I kinda thought life would change 100% immediately and miraculously transform into the dream existence Ive always wanted.
And dont get me wrong it IS amazing being sober, but life is still life, and HOLY CRAP does it have its ups and downs!!
Or maybe the extreme intense mood swings are just some mental problem I have...I dont know, but I go from bouncing off the walls in extreme joy to feeling very sorry for myself,life sucks, whats the point, drinking was fun....
More often than not though, I am quite level and content.
After I quit Alcohol I really started taking more Klonipin(anti-anxiety/sedative) because well I had to have SOMEthing! I mean I couldnt just EXIST right?? Right??
Well now I QUIT any rx's and I am completely, totally, and 100% SOBER!!! From eveything! Clean!
And I am overjoyed because I had lost faith in my bodies ability to just be.
I eat better than ever, I used to think I just didnt "crave" veggies and fruits, but really my hungover self just craved junk junk junk. Not anymore! Still struggling with sweets though!
I have been exercising like nuts, and have lost 17 pounds. I am running a 5K in June(who ME??) and people have starting noticing which is the sweetest music I think Ive ever heard because I have been stuck at the same weight for 5 years.
I just cant believe Im getting healthy! Me!? A miserable binge-drinking, puking, over-eating, puffy, blotchy, smelly MESS of a woman who would rather not even step foot outside into the too-bright sun?? I Am Revitalized!!
The Good Lord must've known my desperate cries for help were serious this time!
Anyone just contemplating or starting their sober journey, let me tell you, it CAN be done. Its gonna be work, its going to seem imPOSSible, you're going to feel like quitting, but if you can just get through this ONE day,and think about tomorrow, tomorrow, you CAN do it! I was the fattest, laziest, most full of excuses person youd ever meet and I mean it when I say "If I can do it, YOU can do it" You have to want it, want sobriety, want a better life, and if you want it bad enough, IT IS YOURS FOR THE TAKING!! It's FREE!!
So thanks ya'll for your support, now Im just kind of waiting to see whats next because this thing called LIFE is full of surprises!!