Went to bed crying last night
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Went to bed crying last night
They were tears of joy. Overwhelming and grateful tears. The forgiveness that meant everything to me.
I had one foot into bed. Literally. I received a text message from my 21 year old daughter expressing how much she loved me, how far I've come in my sobriety and how lucky she felt that I was her Mother. I laid down in bed and fall asleep with tears running down my cheeks.
You see, I made my amends to her last night after Easter dinner. It took me 27 months in and out of sobriety to face her and acknowledge all of the wrongdoings and harm I caused during her life.
I spoke of things that were very shameful. I came clean with her. It was a feeling of incredible vulnerability I had never faced before. I was exposed and prepared for any rebuttal. But I was ready to do it.
And she forgave me. She thanked me for acknowledging the damage I caused when I drank. The hugged me long & hard. Three times.
In many ways I feel like this is the first day of my life. My new life. My sober life.
I love it. I wouldn't trade it for a single drink.
I had one foot into bed. Literally. I received a text message from my 21 year old daughter expressing how much she loved me, how far I've come in my sobriety and how lucky she felt that I was her Mother. I laid down in bed and fall asleep with tears running down my cheeks.
You see, I made my amends to her last night after Easter dinner. It took me 27 months in and out of sobriety to face her and acknowledge all of the wrongdoings and harm I caused during her life.
I spoke of things that were very shameful. I came clean with her. It was a feeling of incredible vulnerability I had never faced before. I was exposed and prepared for any rebuttal. But I was ready to do it.
And she forgave me. She thanked me for acknowledging the damage I caused when I drank. The hugged me long & hard. Three times.
In many ways I feel like this is the first day of my life. My new life. My sober life.
I love it. I wouldn't trade it for a single drink.
Keep on Keeping on. Today is the first day of the rest of your life!
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Very powerful post, SoberFallon. I am so happy that you were able to take such a courageous step in your recovery and that you were able to make amends with your daughter. Wishing you both infinite happy moments in time and memories to share!
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Beautiful. Yes, you acknowledge that you have done much wrong in raising your daughter, but I can clealry see that you have also done much right, as you have a loving and forgiving child. Honor her and yourself by living by your word every day until there are no more days.
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((Fallon)) - I have happy tears just reading your story. I'm often amazed at the times I am driving down the road and am overwhelmed with the gratitude of recovery. I cry, and I smile
I also give thanks to all who have gotten me to this point.
Thank you for sharing your story....it makes my heart smile
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
I also give thanks to all who have gotten me to this point.Thank you for sharing your story....it makes my heart smile
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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You give me great hope with my 22-year-old daughter who I am struggling to have a relationship with. I am sober almost 5 months and pray that someday she will forgive me for the pain I have caused her. Thanks so much for sharing your experience...I can truly understand how grateful you must be today.
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