I'm back!
Choosing Life
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Join Date: Jun 2009
Location: Montana
Posts: 1,435
I'm back!
Some of you will remember me and some of you won't, but everyone here is like family to me. I've been popping in and out for awhile but finally have a chance to say hello to all you wonderful people. 
Wow ... what a ride it has been the last few months. Went to rehab in September, came home in October, and asked my still-drinking alcoholic husband of 20 years to move out, which he did ... and moved right on in with the skank he was cheating on me with. Nice. I stayed sober until November, when I started moving forward with the divorce. It wasn't pretty. I got in some trouble with DFS (Department of Family Services) for getting drunk at home alone with my autistic son, then got hauled to detox in the back of a police car. That detox didn't take, and when the holidays rolled around, I was back at it. It got uglier. My husband was being extremely difficult to deal with, and I hit the bottle hard. Long story short, I ended up back in detox on January 4th of this year, on the verge of losing everything and everyone important to me.
Well ... it's amazing what sobriety can do. I'm coming up on 90 days next week, the divorce is moving forward smoothly, I have a phenomenal support system, I'm in a fantastic outpatient program, attending AA daily, got things straight with DFS, AND I even have a new man in my life, who treats me like a queen. For the first time, I am truly happy. I feel good in my own skin again, I am healing, and I actually LIKE myself. After years of relapsing over and over again, I finally feel like I am in real recovery.
So I wanted to say "hi," and more importantly, to let those struggling know that sobriety IS possible. I never thought I would be living the life I'm having now; happiness seemed like it was totally unreachable. I know what it feels like to be drowning in the bottle and having all hope fade for a better life. But it IS possible. Please don't give up. If I've learned anything at all, it's that a better life can happen for all of us, no matter how far down the scale you've gone. Don't give up ... you are too important.
Much love to you all.
Wow ... what a ride it has been the last few months. Went to rehab in September, came home in October, and asked my still-drinking alcoholic husband of 20 years to move out, which he did ... and moved right on in with the skank he was cheating on me with. Nice. I stayed sober until November, when I started moving forward with the divorce. It wasn't pretty. I got in some trouble with DFS (Department of Family Services) for getting drunk at home alone with my autistic son, then got hauled to detox in the back of a police car. That detox didn't take, and when the holidays rolled around, I was back at it. It got uglier. My husband was being extremely difficult to deal with, and I hit the bottle hard. Long story short, I ended up back in detox on January 4th of this year, on the verge of losing everything and everyone important to me.
Well ... it's amazing what sobriety can do. I'm coming up on 90 days next week, the divorce is moving forward smoothly, I have a phenomenal support system, I'm in a fantastic outpatient program, attending AA daily, got things straight with DFS, AND I even have a new man in my life, who treats me like a queen. For the first time, I am truly happy. I feel good in my own skin again, I am healing, and I actually LIKE myself. After years of relapsing over and over again, I finally feel like I am in real recovery.
So I wanted to say "hi," and more importantly, to let those struggling know that sobriety IS possible. I never thought I would be living the life I'm having now; happiness seemed like it was totally unreachable. I know what it feels like to be drowning in the bottle and having all hope fade for a better life. But it IS possible. Please don't give up. If I've learned anything at all, it's that a better life can happen for all of us, no matter how far down the scale you've gone. Don't give up ... you are too important.
Much love to you all.
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Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: South East England
Posts: 8,009
DS-I remember you well!! You and I shared the misery of trying to get sober in early recovery whilst living with another alcoholic....that was a year ago now.
So happy to hear how you are turning your life around. Well done you, I'm sending you a huge hug xxx
So happy to hear how you are turning your life around. Well done you, I'm sending you a huge hug xxx
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