wtf
 

need someone to talk to

we are in the chat room.

What's up?

We're here. What's going on with you?

can't get into chat room

did something today that I've never done before...not sure y i did it... scares the crap outta me and don't wanna do it again

Well you can post here...just that the responses might be slower. What brings you to SR? What do you need help with?

Did you blackout? Drinking?

tried smoking crack by myself!! not sure y....called a cpl help lines and they made me feel like i shouldn't be calling them...cant figure out y i would do it

how about not smoking drugs and not drinking the rest of today?

i feel so dumb and not sure if this is the right place to be but thought it would be better to talk to people who have been there

yeah i guess ...just feel like noone understands n everyone jus makes me feel stupid

no didn't black out...was drinking earlier and came home...couldnt sleep so decided what the hell

jus scares me that i would even attempt that...thats how easy it is...

don't want it to become a problem...and can't figure out y i would even try it...felt like i needed to tell someone and be accountable for my actions

What's done is done. I've done my share of things I regret. Coming here, getting sober, isn't one of them.

Maybe never drinking and drugging again is your best solution. What do you think?

I've done that. My problem was that it was the beginning of the end, I lost everything within 2 years and didn't care about a thing except my crack high, which didn't really last, was expensive, so I chased it long and hard....

I understand. YOU are catching it early. Rehab is an option if you can't stop seeking it out now.

I wish you well. You are so much more intelligent than I!

I think the problem is in the house.

I bet there is some good AA/NA in Red Deer, I haven't been there for a while but you may want to check it out.

All the best.

Bob R