The Beauty of A Shower
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The Beauty of A Shower
When I was actively drinking, personal hygiene meant very little to me.
I only showered during the week because of work. And I hated it. I was always dizzy and needed to have one hand on the shower wall for balance.
Never showered on the weekends. Or brushed my teeth. Why bother? I always made sure I had enough booze to last me all weekend so I had no need to go out into the real world again until Monday. If I did run out of booze, I thought nothing of running down to the liquor store in this state.
It was downright nasty.
I suppose I've been thinking about this very thing the past few weeks because now I actually look forward to a warm, soul cleansing shower.
Sober, I can feel the warm water. I can feel my muscles relax and appreciate the steam. I can stand on my own 2 feet without help from the wall. I smell the fragrance of shampoo and soap.
I don't ever want to forget how awful showering used to be. I want to remember. Always. If I forget, I fear I will lose the gratitude of how wonderful this daily task means to me.
I only showered during the week because of work. And I hated it. I was always dizzy and needed to have one hand on the shower wall for balance.
Never showered on the weekends. Or brushed my teeth. Why bother? I always made sure I had enough booze to last me all weekend so I had no need to go out into the real world again until Monday. If I did run out of booze, I thought nothing of running down to the liquor store in this state.
It was downright nasty.
I suppose I've been thinking about this very thing the past few weeks because now I actually look forward to a warm, soul cleansing shower.
Sober, I can feel the warm water. I can feel my muscles relax and appreciate the steam. I can stand on my own 2 feet without help from the wall. I smell the fragrance of shampoo and soap.
I don't ever want to forget how awful showering used to be. I want to remember. Always. If I forget, I fear I will lose the gratitude of how wonderful this daily task means to me.
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A nice hot cleansing shower feels so good! A soaking bath is good too...
Having a good shower got me through the first few days. I was in a psych ward a year ago, and for some reason there was no hot water in the shower. I went to a bar as soon as I was released. When I went to detox, it was pretty basic but at least I had a comfy bed and a hot shower. I went to 90 meetings in 90 days after release, and am still sober.
Having a good shower got me through the first few days. I was in a psych ward a year ago, and for some reason there was no hot water in the shower. I went to a bar as soon as I was released. When I went to detox, it was pretty basic but at least I had a comfy bed and a hot shower. I went to 90 meetings in 90 days after release, and am still sober.
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Wow....SoberFallon.....I've just flashed back to those shower days when I was drinking. I only took baths because I was too thin and weak from drinking to stand up in a shower..... So grateful those days are behind me.
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Oh my gosh!! Soberfallon that was me too. Taking a shower was so hard. Same thing felt dizzy, had to hold on or sit down. And washing my hair..forget about it.
Still sometimes now in the shower I so much appreciate that I am standing calm, not shaking , feeling the warm water , soap, shampoo. Seems so simple to me now but that was rough.
So thankful that is behind me. Yet another reason to stay the course
Thanks for the post
Still sometimes now in the shower I so much appreciate that I am standing calm, not shaking , feeling the warm water , soap, shampoo. Seems so simple to me now but that was rough.
So thankful that is behind me. Yet another reason to stay the course
Thanks for the post
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