Clean for 3 months now
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Join Date: Mar 2013
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Clean for 3 months now
I have been having a lot of difficulty trying to trust people in AA. I don't trust many people. However, I have never been disrespected in AA or NA ever. Except for the basic male guy trying to hit on me. LOL I just walk away and tell them no.
I have recently gotten out of a very abusive marriage. We are still in the process of divorce. I left last August and I was clean 6 months prior to January 1st 2013. I thought I could handle the bar scene but I obviously relapsed. I'm not really upset by it. It happend and it's over with.
I have a hard time being around people. There are some I would like to hang out with. Except I could have gotten my 3 month medalion in NA except I just could not stand up n front of people to speak and than I don't like being hugged. But, I know I have to overcome that.
Its hard dealingwith new emotions. I have a sponser and people I talk with. But, I feel I am wasting there time, when I want to talk about myself.Except, whats different and wonderful is I am actually now wanting to be around people. I've met a couple poeple who are very great. But, I can only do personal one on one hanging out. Other than that I remain anonymous.
Does this change over time? I can't take anything really for myself. I have no legal issues and or a clean record. I was the closet stay at home wife drinker and pain killer popper. But, it's been 3 moths. I am proud of going 6 months without rdrinking. and than I voluntarily went to NA because I new I had a problem with pain killers.
it's slowly getting better. Is there anyhting I can to do to get my life back? I am not really depressed or sad. I just am now creating a new me. Because for the first time I am starting to have fun for the first time. I am not referring to hanging out with people from aa or na. but I do not mind my solitude. Except I know i need to meet people as well.
I have recently gotten out of a very abusive marriage. We are still in the process of divorce. I left last August and I was clean 6 months prior to January 1st 2013. I thought I could handle the bar scene but I obviously relapsed. I'm not really upset by it. It happend and it's over with.
I have a hard time being around people. There are some I would like to hang out with. Except I could have gotten my 3 month medalion in NA except I just could not stand up n front of people to speak and than I don't like being hugged. But, I know I have to overcome that.
Its hard dealingwith new emotions. I have a sponser and people I talk with. But, I feel I am wasting there time, when I want to talk about myself.Except, whats different and wonderful is I am actually now wanting to be around people. I've met a couple poeple who are very great. But, I can only do personal one on one hanging out. Other than that I remain anonymous.
Does this change over time? I can't take anything really for myself. I have no legal issues and or a clean record. I was the closet stay at home wife drinker and pain killer popper. But, it's been 3 moths. I am proud of going 6 months without rdrinking. and than I voluntarily went to NA because I new I had a problem with pain killers.
it's slowly getting better. Is there anyhting I can to do to get my life back? I am not really depressed or sad. I just am now creating a new me. Because for the first time I am starting to have fun for the first time. I am not referring to hanging out with people from aa or na. but I do not mind my solitude. Except I know i need to meet people as well.
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