Of course I can drink....
 

I can drink any time I want to. No one ever said I cannot. I am of legal age, I dont wear an ankle monitoring device, I can go buy alcohol up to 11pm at night, every night. No one said I cant drink, excpet me. When it comes to drinking alcohol, the only one that matters is me. I am alcoholic, so when I am drinking, its all about me, my needs, my wants...everything. The other side rings just as true... My sobriety is all about me. Its not how long others have been sober, or how they got sober, that doesn't reflect at all on my sobriety. What matters is me...and for me, the most important thing is that I remain me, true to myself..and not deceived into not being me by ingesting alcohol. I am now 90 days alcohol free, after my last relapse, and I am so grateful for this chance again to keep true to myself, keep sober, and keep appreciating life. This really is about me, just as everyone else is about themselves, because no one else can do it but ourselves. I am learning about loving myself sober again, and I have so much thanks to give all of you wonderful people in SR land. You all have helped me by showing every alcoholic who comes onto this site understanding, compassion and patience...I can drink, but I hope I never will again...it could be my last, and because I am sober, I stopped wishing I was dead...Thanks to all the compassion that has been shown me, I am learning to be compassionate to myself... Thank you all...

What a great post! Thanks for sharing.

Great post. I always say to myself that just because I can drink alcohol doesn't mean I should. It's amazing how much self hatred falls away when we're sober isn't it? I was surprised how many of my bad thoughts were caused by alcohol x

Wonderful post Losteverything, really made me think.

Hypochondriac I relate to that completely. I can't believe how alcohol used to make myself, not only about myself, but in general, just how twisted it can make you. After 3 days off I already feel more calmer, more positive and though everything's not hunky dory it's a damn sight better than what it was last week!

Thanks for your post, losteverything. I'm just 20 days back as well, and things are getting better already. Glad you are here.

lost ~ thank you.

Beautiful and inspiring words. And congratulations on 90 days! Fantastic!

Your truth and your words echo my own feelings and thoughts; thank you for posting this.

Honoured to know you.

Venus xx

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Congrats on ninety days sober! :scoregood

Thanks all... There really isn't anything that doesn't improve, mentally, spiritually, physically or monetarily, once the bottle is put down.

It was easier getting sober right away by tricking myself into thinking alcohol simply wasn't available to me anymore. It helped early on, but in the end I changed my thinking to echo yours.

Of course it's available. It's everywhere. Once I acknowledged that truth, I changed my mantra. Sure, I CAN drink. But I don't want to. Sounds like you have learned to trust yourself - that's huge IMO. Nice work, thanks for the post - you are certainly gaining some insight, it's encouraging to hear your progress!

Learning to like and love yourself is so important. Thanks for the thread.

Fantastic post....Congrats on 90 days....

That's an absolute cracker of a post, Lost. Every time you feel even the slightest wobble, call it up and read it again and again.

Well done and loads of thanks,

NT

Congrats on 90 Days!

((Lost)) Thank you so much for your inspiring post!


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Lost -

Yeah, when I was telling my therapist months back that I couldn't drink anymore she said, "Actually you can. You'll just suffer the consequences."

True dat.

Great post.