tired of it
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Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: cape town
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tired of it
Hello, I'm new here. I was clean for a year and I've relapsed
And I'm so angry and frustrated that it is like this again
And I just can't stop!!! I wish it wld STOP !! Please let it.
And I'm so angry and frustrated that it is like this again
And I just can't stop!!! I wish it wld STOP !! Please let it.
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Hi anathaine. Welcome to SR. 
You're taking the first step, and that's something to be proud of. I once relapsed after 3 yrs., so I know how you feel - but this time you'll be even more determined to stay the course. You can do it. We're glad you're here - you'll find loads of help and encouragement by being part of the family.
You're taking the first step, and that's something to be proud of. I once relapsed after 3 yrs., so I know how you feel - but this time you'll be even more determined to stay the course. You can do it. We're glad you're here - you'll find loads of help and encouragement by being part of the family.
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Location: Georgia
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Don't beat yourself up for relapsing after having clean time. I relapsed after 13 years. "It" won't stop because "it" is your addiction. YOU can stop. You did it before and you can do it again. It sucks and it is hard but you can do this. Get away from the people, places, and things and find support.
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Location: cape town
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meetings
Hi, yes...well I haven't been going to meetings
Coz I'm too lazy and nervous and most times don't
Have a lift but now I'm really gonna do it coz I
Don't want it like this again! I live in Cape Town,
I'm going to a meeting tonight - it's 12:51pm God! How am
I going to get thru the rest of the day without using!!
Coz I'm too lazy and nervous and most times don't
Have a lift but now I'm really gonna do it coz I
Don't want it like this again! I live in Cape Town,
I'm going to a meeting tonight - it's 12:51pm God! How am
I going to get thru the rest of the day without using!!
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Its the chemist u see?! I drink codeine cough syrup.
I did stop last year I became very spiritual now I've lost
All that and am even giving "favours" (jeez I just can't bring myself to
Say it) to my friend, my only friend really, then he buys it for me. He
Doesn't use drugs himself. Ok well I do have another friend he says
I must stay away from this guy (the ex) coz he is manipulating, enabling
Me. I know that but then where will I get my alzam? I was ok before without it!
I just feel an obsession like if I don't take the codeine "something bad
Will happen". Like OCD.
I did stop last year I became very spiritual now I've lost
All that and am even giving "favours" (jeez I just can't bring myself to
Say it) to my friend, my only friend really, then he buys it for me. He
Doesn't use drugs himself. Ok well I do have another friend he says
I must stay away from this guy (the ex) coz he is manipulating, enabling
Me. I know that but then where will I get my alzam? I was ok before without it!
I just feel an obsession like if I don't take the codeine "something bad
Will happen". Like OCD.
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