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Now that was funny RocketQueen suck it up Lol I bet it even got MLC to laugh huh? I hope you are having a better day MLC and I really could relate,as many of us do, to the first time we had to quit.I was real scared too,but to tell you the truth.You know what really made me do it WHEN I WAS SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED!And I also didn't want to leave my children with a horrible memory of how their mother died,**** they might have even found me ,who knows right? Pull on your inner strengh you have,and face those demons one at a time.They will never go away until you do ,and it's gonna set you free!!!Finally one day at a time you'll be ok,ask for help,its called humility. Nothing changes if nothing changes. I hope the best for you. Acually things do change,they get worse.
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Hey MLC! 
Lots of great advice here. Read and reread these posts to you.
I know it is so very scary to give up our security blanket and like fini said, because we can't control it, we give up that instant control of our emotions. We have a feeling we don't want and we alter ourselves chemically to make it go away. But it never really goes away, does it?
And that's also why it's so scary--because we know deep down that all that we've been shoving and denying is still there waiting for us to deal with. The good news is we don't have to deal with all of it right away. In healing our addictions we get to learn new tools and skills for coping with all those painful thoughts and feelings.
I was really scared when I went in for my suboxone induction, too. All of a sudden I was not ready to quit opiates! I need to use once more, a week more, a month more, a year more. But the opportunity/challenge was there right then and I had to grab or risk being trapped in my living hell prison of addiction for who knew how much longer? And how much longer was I going to make it with the amounts I was using?
I still fear life without drugs. Still have that sickness of addiction that tells me that fun=getting wasted. But I know that will continue to heal with time and working on my recovery. It will for you, too.
You have tons of support here and in your life at home, too. Reach for it, let it in, start to try to trust it. You have the strength to do it. You do.
Lots of great advice here. Read and reread these posts to you.I know it is so very scary to give up our security blanket and like fini said, because we can't control it, we give up that instant control of our emotions. We have a feeling we don't want and we alter ourselves chemically to make it go away. But it never really goes away, does it?
And that's also why it's so scary--because we know deep down that all that we've been shoving and denying is still there waiting for us to deal with. The good news is we don't have to deal with all of it right away. In healing our addictions we get to learn new tools and skills for coping with all those painful thoughts and feelings.
I was really scared when I went in for my suboxone induction, too. All of a sudden I was not ready to quit opiates! I need to use once more, a week more, a month more, a year more. But the opportunity/challenge was there right then and I had to grab or risk being trapped in my living hell prison of addiction for who knew how much longer? And how much longer was I going to make it with the amounts I was using?
I still fear life without drugs. Still have that sickness of addiction that tells me that fun=getting wasted. But I know that will continue to heal with time and working on my recovery. It will for you, too.
You have tons of support here and in your life at home, too. Reach for it, let it in, start to try to trust it. You have the strength to do it. You do.
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Originally Posted by Midlifecrisis 
Got a meeting with pastor tonight. Took only a couple this morning then the rest in one go before plus more stupif
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Originally Posted by Midlifecrisis
Cool/terrifying adventure. Life on life's terms is how it's supposed to be. Why is it so damn scary?
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