I'm done!
 

My name is Dave and I'm an alcoholic. I've been one for many years with a couple stints of sobriety in between. I did something the other night I swore I would never do. I drove drunk. Not just tipsy. I can only remember bits and pieces of the drive home. I could have killed somebody! A kid, a mother. I could have ruined innocent peoples lives, because I'm a drunk. In all my years of drinking, that was the one line that I said I would never cross.

I swore to myself that I'd kill myself before I ever let by alcoholism take control like this. But it has. But I'm not going to kill myself, so there's only one option. I'm done!

For years I've made excuses to myself that I was a "functioning" alcoholic. What a ridiculous term.

I'm on day four again, but this time I'm done. I......AM.......DONE!!!

Congrats on your 4 days Dave!! I myself am new to all this and you will get great support here!

A functioning alcoholic is one who just hasn't crashed (yet).

I made up my mind many times but it was committing to AA that made my mind stay made-up.

All the best to you.

Bob R

Dave, Im new too, and know just what you mean about being DONE! As cb1 says, there is awesome support here. It is so good to know that there are others who understand just what we are going through, and offer advice as to what they are doing to stay sober.

Awesome Dave, just stick around here with us, find some face to face support, and keep that resolve!

welcome back Dave :)

D

Congratulations on day 4 Dave.

Hi Dave. It took me decades to finally realize I had no control over it. Always thought I could manage it with willpower. That led to me drinking 'round the clock - dui's, all sorts of chaos. It was such a relief to be free of it. I'm glad you've arrived at the right (and only) decision.