Can anyone assist me ???
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Im not trying to look for the easy path im looking for the right path. I havent gone to any na clases this past month, n nothing is different. I have been sober from today back to december, not because anyone made me, but because i made myself. The 16 clases ive gone to, yes ive shared informaion but barely anything however every class I have gone to not one single person wanted or could sponsor. I see no use in still going if im not going to be able to find a sponsor.I find the other peoples stories and struggles interesting but im sorry to say, im a druggie because i turned to drugs in my time of need but im not a drug addict because i dont think about drugs, i dont have urges to do drugs. I have 3 thousand dollars in my bank account I could go out n get loaded if I really wanted to but thats not what im interested in. Yeah I want to get my dad off my back, but alot of my problems I faced in my child hood was because of my dad and because of that I have nothing but dislike towards him and I just put up with him. I still take painkillers everyday... ie tylenol w/ codeine and aderol... but you know what I dont abuse them, I don't lust for them. However I will never be able to truly open up to anyone I have ever met face to face, and because of this it not only affects me in NA but it affects my life. Ive never had "true" friends that i can say i trusted 100%. I have never dated before because I will never let myself get close to a girl. This is whom I am and I accept that, im not gonna make it worse by taking drugs, but all I want to do is get a job and my car move out and live alone without other people for no one can ever be trusted besides urself
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Originally Posted by Anon92 
Im not trying to look for the easy path im looking for the right path. I havent gone to any na clases this past month, n nothing is different. I have been sober from today back to december, not because anyone made me, but because i made myself. The 16 clases ive gone to, yes ive shared informaion but barely anything however every class I have gone to not one single person wanted or could sponsor. I see no use in still going if im not going to be able to find a sponsor.I find the other peoples stories and struggles interesting but im sorry to say, im a druggie because i turned to drugs in my time of need but im not a drug addict because i dont think about drugs, i dont have urges to do drugs. I have 3 thousand dollars in my bank account I could go out n get loaded if I really wanted to but thats not what im interested in. Yeah I want to get my dad off my back, but alot of my problems I faced in my child hood was because of my dad and because of that I have nothing but dislike towards him and I just put up with him. I still take painkillers everyday... ie tylenol w/ codeine and aderol... but you know what I dont abuse them, I don't lust for them. However I will never be able to truly open up to anyone I have ever met face to face, and because of this it not only affects me in NA but it affects my life. Ive never had "true" friends that i can say i trusted 100%. I have never dated before because I will never let myself get close to a girl. This is whom I am and I accept that, im not gonna make it worse by taking drugs, but all I want to do is get a job and my car move out and live alone without other people for no one can ever be trusted besides urself
Honestly I'd suggest you print out this entire conversation and take it to your next meeting with your therapist. Since she seems to be one you can confide it in might be good to let her read it and share her thoughts.
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Honestly bro ur ******* stupid, i havent contradicted myself at all im going to NA to prove to my dad Im not a drug addict, instead that it was just a phase. Im not scum like the rest of you that lived everyday to get high, no me I asked myself everyday why I was still here and the reason I still am is because im too afraid to put a gun to my head or a knife to my rists. Yeah i could be considered a druggie and **** but im not a drug addict, my goal wasnt to get high, ive never gone through withdrawls, nor did I ever go out of my way to get drugs.
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Originally Posted by Anon92
Honestly bro ur ******* stupid, i havent contradicted myself at all im going to NA to prove to my dad Im not a drug addict, instead that it was just a phase. Im not scum like the rest of you that lived everyday to get high, no me I asked myself everyday why I was still here and the reason I still am is because im too afraid to put a gun to my head or a knife to my rists. Yeah i could be considered a druggie and **** but im not a drug addict, my goal wasnt to get high, ive never gone through withdrawls, nor did I ever go out of my way to get drugs.
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It seems like all you really want is someone to ring your dad.
I'm sure you can find someone, any schmoe, to do that.
It's not honest but it seems to me getting your dad off your back is the real object here for you, not recovery
You got great advice - it's a shame you're not responsive to it.
If it's not the advice you want, then fine but abuse will not be tolerated here.
Thread closed.
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I'm sure you can find someone, any schmoe, to do that.
It's not honest but it seems to me getting your dad off your back is the real object here for you, not recovery
You got great advice - it's a shame you're not responsive to it.
If it's not the advice you want, then fine but abuse will not be tolerated here.
Thread closed.
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