Took a while to accept I have a problem.
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Took a while to accept I have a problem.
Hello! Well let me start off by saying that I had my last drink Saturday night. I've been fighting that I have a problem for a long time now, and it's only made it worse. It started in October when I would have a beer or two on a couple weekdays to relax before bed and I was self medicating with it because I have HORRIBLE anxiety issues. On the weekends...I would drink til I black out and not remember hours of the night before, including getting into a HUGE fight with my fiancee, and trying to kiss one of my friends boyfriends (neither I remember AT ALL), yes I know BAD stuff.
Finally this weekend, my fiancee and I had a LONG talk and we are both going to not drink for 30 days, but I think I should just stop completely for a long time, maybe permanently. The fact that I'm SCARED of not drinking again makes me feel really pathetic. But I know that this will greatly improve my life and health.
I just need to shut up the voice in my head saying I can't do it.
Finally this weekend, my fiancee and I had a LONG talk and we are both going to not drink for 30 days, but I think I should just stop completely for a long time, maybe permanently. The fact that I'm SCARED of not drinking again makes me feel really pathetic. But I know that this will greatly improve my life and health.
I just need to shut up the voice in my head saying I can't do it.
Welcome!
The bad news is it never shuts up. It wants to drink and doesn't care that you think you shouldn't. (I have one, too, so I know.)
The good news is that it's only a voice, and it has no real power. YOU have a much stronger voice with real power behind it.
And you ABSOLUTELY can do this.
The bad news is it never shuts up. It wants to drink and doesn't care that you think you shouldn't. (I have one, too, so I know.)
The good news is that it's only a voice, and it has no real power. YOU have a much stronger voice with real power behind it.
And you ABSOLUTELY can do this.
Feeling scarred of change is not unusual , lots of people have that .
I think it's great to give up for a certain amount of time if longer is getting you nervy.
My drinking was pritty bad so i thought i should give at least a year a try and see where i was then , i found i quite liked being sober .
I'm coming up to 18 months alcohol free , i don't want a drink today and i can't envisage me wanting one tomorow . Forever is a very big idea so i'll just stick to a more human kinda timescale ..
Bestwishes, M
I think it's great to give up for a certain amount of time if longer is getting you nervy.
My drinking was pritty bad so i thought i should give at least a year a try and see where i was then , i found i quite liked being sober .
I'm coming up to 18 months alcohol free , i don't want a drink today and i can't envisage me wanting one tomorow . Forever is a very big idea so i'll just stick to a more human kinda timescale ..
Bestwishes, M
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Welcome to SR! I'm glad you found us!
Give the 30 days a sincere effort. My guess is that as you rack up a few sober days and then a few sober weekends, you'll start to feel a lot better about things. It is really nice waking up with no regrets over what you said/did/texted/broke the night before. You'll probably want a lot more mornings like that once you've gotten a taste of it.
The fact that you can already hear/identify that voice means you are ahead of the game.
Give the 30 days a sincere effort. My guess is that as you rack up a few sober days and then a few sober weekends, you'll start to feel a lot better about things. It is really nice waking up with no regrets over what you said/did/texted/broke the night before. You'll probably want a lot more mornings like that once you've gotten a taste of it.
The fact that you can already hear/identify that voice means you are ahead of the game.
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That voice in the head defies all reason. It's only a liquid. How can it have a consciousness? A plant perhaps, but a liquid?
Best of luck with your journey, and that's awesome that your fiancee is going to join you.
Drinking stops being fun after a certain point. It becomes like a heavy metal pendant dangling from your chest, and it's always there as a reminder.
Best of luck with your journey, and that's awesome that your fiancee is going to join you.
Drinking stops being fun after a certain point. It becomes like a heavy metal pendant dangling from your chest, and it's always there as a reminder.
welcome cbeeapple
giving up drinking was just about the scariest thing I'd ever done...but I've never regretted it.
I got my life back - and I got me - the real me - back.
If any of that makes sense to you - go for it
giving up drinking was just about the scariest thing I'd ever done...but I've never regretted it.
I got my life back - and I got me - the real me - back.
If any of that makes sense to you - go for it
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