deeker

Feeling really grateful today and remembering where I was a little over a year ago.

No more feeling ashamed and embarrassed all the time .

No more worrying about who I fell down in front of .

No more sweating profusely all the time .

No more going entire days without eating and dry heaving at the sight of food .

Being able to keep my word. (And even wanting to.) .

Being able to remember where I was last night .

Seeing my personality come back to life, laughing again. Feeling like "me" again .

Having the freedom to think about things other than alcohol .

No more anxiety .

No more being obsessed about whether 'I can and can't drink , wondering if I will have enough .Do I have enough in the house? etc.' or 'How can I get through this night without a drink?' .


Waking up in the morning and looking forward to the day instead of trying to remember if I did anything stupid the night before .


No more waking up with that panicked feeling thinking "who did I talk to on the phone last night? .

Being able to brush my teeth in the morning without vomiting .

No more hangovers .

No more calling in sick and making excuses .

No more throwing up on the side of the road .

No more pregnancy scares .

No more laziness and apathy .

No more "where did that bruise/injury come from?"

No more fear of getting pulled over for a DUI . I had 3.

No more being stuffed in an 8 by 10 jail cell with 2 other women.

No more wondering why my wallet is empty .

No more spending money that I don't have .

No more heartburn .

I can look at myself in the mirror today and smile!!

Scary stuff huh? I am so grateful today that I don't have to live that way .

I am gonna have nightmares just thinking about this stuff. But at least I will wake up and realize it was just a dream. I am sober today!

There is always hope my friend if you are new. I was a LOW bottom drunk.

Try AA, keep coming here. We do this together. God can do anything!!

Sazzle

Great post. Almost all of the above (no jail or DIU) plus one of my pregnancy scares was not a scare and I live with that decision every day of my life.

I'm truly grateful for being sober.

S x

Jackpot214

Thanks Deeker for that post. I have ten days. My jackpot was on 2/14 with my 2nd DUI. I had to tell my children about it last night because my sister-in-law saw it in a newspaper. My daughters were sympathetic, supportive and appreciative that I have been sober these 10 days and that I am trying to do what I am told by my NEW AA FRIENDS! I immediately got a counselor and attend daily meetings and as many evening meetings as I can get to. I also have joined Celebrate Recovery.

My son was condescending. I deserve the mistrust and realize I have to earn back what I took advantage of in the past.

I look forward to a life free of the insanity of alcohol. I can't wait to find out who I really am.

kiki26

I could of written this list myself. Thank you, i am feeling down today, always good to remember how much worse it was drinking.

janiebluebird

I really relate to most of your list. I especially relate to the drunk dialing, worse is drunk texting - right there in the print to read the next day (ugh). Thanks for that. I think I'll save it to review.

Quinne

Great post, deeker! I can relate with so, so much-and those things that I can't necessarily? They're "yets" for me; I am so grateful to be relieved of the compulsion to drink and am really starting to enjoy having a relationship with myself, my HP and everyone around me

No more looking in the mirror and seeing the eyes of a self-destructive, hopeless and lost young woman who seemed hellbent on dying......it's the best thing to have that sparkle back and be able to genuinely smile til my face hurts and laugh like there's no tomorrow

Xx

Pixienottipsy

I definitely relate to your list, Deeker. I am thankful to feel like a human again. lol

vegibean

Deeker, some of that made me giggle because it's so true and I have been there before. Thanks for all your great and positive posts.

kizzy40

Thanks deeker, I have to pinch myself too when I think back.. we have another bite of the cherry

deeker

Thanks if you liked that you may get a kick out of this. It is good we can laugh at ourselves now and if you are new I hope this isn't in bad taste.

NEW WARNINGS THAT SHOULD BE PUT ON ALCOHOL PACKAGES..


WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may make you think you are whispering when you are not..

WARNING: Consumption of alcohol is a major factor in dancing like an idiot..

WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may cause you to tell the same boring story over
and over again until your friends want to Knock you out..

WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may cause you to thay
shings like thish..

WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may lead you to believe that
ex-lovers are really dying for you to telephone them at four
in the morning..

WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may leave you wondering what
the heck happened to your pants..

WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may make you think you can logically
converse with other members of the opposite sex without spitting...

WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may make you think you have mystical
Kung Fu powers..

WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may cause you to roll over in the morning
and see something really scary (whose species and/or name you can't remember)...

WARNING: Consumption of alcohol is the leading cause of inexplicable rug
burns on the forehead..

WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may create the illusion that you are tougher, smarter
and more handsome than some really, really big guy named FRANZ..

WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may lead you to believe you are invisible..

WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may lead you to think people are
laughing WITH you..

WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may cause an influx in the time-space
continuum, whereby small (and sometimes large) gaps of time may seem to literally disappear..


If you are new Please keep coming back and take suggestions, if you have been around hope you were able to laugh at yourself just a little. I know I did. Thanks,

Mvngon

Love, love, love your lists! Thanks for taking the time to post them. The second one still has me laughing!

deeker

Thanks mv, everyday I am totally amazed that I am not jonesin for a drink. It is truly a miracle. I even got my license back recently after 7 years! Woohoo!! Driving that 1st day was amazing, such freedom!