I want a drink
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I want a drink
I want a drink. I want a drink. 3rd verse same as the first.
There's beer in the fridge from our non drinking visitors last night
Just saying.
Why do benzos make you want to drink drunk drink.
There's beer in the fridge from our non drinking visitors last night
Just saying.
Why do benzos make you want to drink drunk drink.
Never taken benzoes so I can't answer that from a personal standpoint MLC.
Feelings are not facts - you can get through this craving.
Why not ask your husband to dispose or get rid of the beer?
D
Feelings are not facts - you can get through this craving.
Why not ask your husband to dispose or get rid of the beer?
D
It really is hard sometimes but it does pass. Being an alcoholic all I want is just *one*...this one drink may seem harmless but I know for me, it's never just one. Also mixing benzos with alcohol can be a deadly cocktail. I speak only from my own experience of relapsing, blacking out and overdosing on a handful of xanax that I apparently took while drunk..I almost died and know that it could have been worse.
Please be safe, you are worth it!
Please be safe, you are worth it!
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I can completely relate to your abuse of benzodiazapines and alcohol.
It's so dangerous.
I really hope you can talk to your doctor about mixing the two. If you need to get off benzodiazapines, that must be done VERY carefully.
Please take care of yourself and do not have that drink.
It's so dangerous.
I really hope you can talk to your doctor about mixing the two. If you need to get off benzodiazapines, that must be done VERY carefully.
Please take care of yourself and do not have that drink.
The last time I mixed valium with alcohol I ended up in the hospital. I don't remember so much except that when I came around I had hurt myself (and I mean self harmed here). Don't want to go into the details but it was the wake up call I needed because the valium had blocked out any pain from injuring myself and the alcohol had sent my mind to a very dark place. This was a night that started out great by the way but rapidly spiraled downwards (without me evening knowing - still have total black out on what happened). What I do know is that I WOULD NEVER do something like that sober...I am shocked myself when I think about it....
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I am stupid. Positing on here helps me
Alot Becker. People understand . But I can't help mtlar. I can't help
It. I've new suiicidal but it rally don't want to die. But I go
To th beer before my hubby did. He's hidden my valium and I can't didnt it anywhere
Frock it,
When will I ever just get this. I'm laughing hysterically with he kids way kids the Brady bunch movie hahahaha. Maybe I can just
Get fexked up on weekends .
Not
Fair on my husband who will have to check on ime all night knowing mixing benzos with drink:
Suddenly stopped my ads today due to inward effects toos
I
Dropped my phone . It's cracked : poor phone I'm
About to pass out
Alot Becker. People understand . But I can't help mtlar. I can't help
It. I've new suiicidal but it rally don't want to die. But I go
To th beer before my hubby did. He's hidden my valium and I can't didnt it anywhere
Frock it,
When will I ever just get this. I'm laughing hysterically with he kids way kids the Brady bunch movie hahahaha. Maybe I can just
Get fexked up on weekends .
Not
Fair on my husband who will have to check on ime all night knowing mixing benzos with drink:
Suddenly stopped my ads today due to inward effects toos
I
Dropped my phone . It's cracked : poor phone I'm
About to pass out
MLC
Those ideas you have are lies.
Just doing this on weekends?
I thought that too - the truth was I couldn't go a day without getting wasted.
I'm just having fun and no one knows? I thought that too.
The fact is I wasn't having fun, and *everybody* knew - you can't stumble about hurting myself and talking gibberish like I did & have no one know.
I wasn't prepared to actually do anything about things.
The only thing I was prepared to do was get high.
I kept hoping that somehow I'd just stop, or find control, or have the obsession removed.
None of that happened.
What did happen is I crashed and burned - badly.
The crash is inevitable I think you know that.
Maybe even a little part of you wants it because then something will be done?
The thing is crashes aren't pretty - sometimes they maim hurt and even kill - and they're not even necessary.
You have a chance to avoid that - and save yourself and your family a whole of grief.
However scary as reaching out for real help is I promise you it's not have as scary as crashing and burning.
I wish you would take that chance, K, I really do.
D
Those ideas you have are lies.
Just doing this on weekends?
I thought that too - the truth was I couldn't go a day without getting wasted.
I'm just having fun and no one knows? I thought that too.
The fact is I wasn't having fun, and *everybody* knew - you can't stumble about hurting myself and talking gibberish like I did & have no one know.
I wasn't prepared to actually do anything about things.
The only thing I was prepared to do was get high.
I kept hoping that somehow I'd just stop, or find control, or have the obsession removed.
None of that happened.
What did happen is I crashed and burned - badly.
The crash is inevitable I think you know that.
Maybe even a little part of you wants it because then something will be done?
The thing is crashes aren't pretty - sometimes they maim hurt and even kill - and they're not even necessary.
You have a chance to avoid that - and save yourself and your family a whole of grief.
However scary as reaching out for real help is I promise you it's not have as scary as crashing and burning.
I wish you would take that chance, K, I really do.
D
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MLC, bottom is simply accepting that you can't control your drinking, ever. It is not a series of really bad events. I had lots of bad things happen, but none of them ever forced or motivated me to change. What helped me to change was just understanding at the deepest level that I am an alcoholic and nothing is going to change it. I can wish it, hope it, plan it, pray it, work it, or whatever, but I will always be an alcoholic and cannot control my drinking...once I pick up the first one. That is the only place I have some power, that initial choice to pick up the first one.
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MLC, Directline is a service that is manned 24/7 by trained drug and alcohol professionals, their number is 1800 888 236. They will be able to suggest services for detox and/or rehab in your area. Maybe having verbal contact will take things a step further and help in reaching out.
What would it mean to you to give yourself a chance to be happy?
You deserve this, just as we all do-even if there are times where we (I) don't believe it.
Xx
What would it mean to you to give yourself a chance to be happy?
You deserve this, just as we all do-even if there are times where we (I) don't believe it.
Xx
MLC,
your posts send chills down my spine because our stories are so similar. I am a bit further down the line...the BETTER line...recovery. But I recall being exactly where you are, it wasn't long ago.
I remember wanting someone to save me. Wanting it to get bad enough that others saw I needed help, but I still wasn't really the bad guy because I was sick, that they would bring me someplace safe and sort me out.
There is help to sort ourselves out, and my friend, you need it, deserve it, and it will save your life. You don't have to wait for someone else to save you, or prove anything by taking any further risks with your well being.
You've already started by joining us here, take the next step and get help in real time. It will make a difference. You can do what it takes, no matter how it looks and feels to you right now. I say this because if I could do it, so can you. Our stories are scary parallel.
A couple of weeks ago I was organizing some of my things and came across some photos of myself a few years ago. In any photo I could tell you, simply by my eyes whether or not I was sober. Even though they were simple photos, Two friends or family members, side by side, "look here and smile!". Meaning it didn't even take seeing my behavior or hearing my slurred voice to know if I was drinking, my eyes gave it away in the matter of the fraction of a second it takes to snap a photo. There were some photos of the same time period, in which I was not drunk. A couple drinks in me and I was a totally different person.
It's MORE than OK to get help now, to reach out on your own behalf. You don't have to wait for one more crisis, someone else to take control, or any of that. Saying "I'm scared, don't know what to do" and then being willing to accept the help that was offered was the first breakthrough in my recovery.
No one thought less of me for doing so, they were glad I did. They were overjoyed. Many were proud of me for doing so. Most of all I did myself the biggest favor ever, took care of me and saved my life.
I didn't know what would work and what wouldn't. None of it made sense to me. I had to ask, try, feel. But every day I did (and continue to do) something towards my own recovery, and I made progress. My own determination and desire to get sober, combined with effort on my own behalf, has saved and transformed my life...from the inside.
Every time you post here, I see the seed of true recovery, a determination to get better, behind the fear, behind the anger, behind all those other feelings and situations you share with us, I still sense your determination.
your posts send chills down my spine because our stories are so similar. I am a bit further down the line...the BETTER line...recovery. But I recall being exactly where you are, it wasn't long ago.
I remember wanting someone to save me. Wanting it to get bad enough that others saw I needed help, but I still wasn't really the bad guy because I was sick, that they would bring me someplace safe and sort me out.
There is help to sort ourselves out, and my friend, you need it, deserve it, and it will save your life. You don't have to wait for someone else to save you, or prove anything by taking any further risks with your well being.
You've already started by joining us here, take the next step and get help in real time. It will make a difference. You can do what it takes, no matter how it looks and feels to you right now. I say this because if I could do it, so can you. Our stories are scary parallel.
A couple of weeks ago I was organizing some of my things and came across some photos of myself a few years ago. In any photo I could tell you, simply by my eyes whether or not I was sober. Even though they were simple photos, Two friends or family members, side by side, "look here and smile!". Meaning it didn't even take seeing my behavior or hearing my slurred voice to know if I was drinking, my eyes gave it away in the matter of the fraction of a second it takes to snap a photo. There were some photos of the same time period, in which I was not drunk. A couple drinks in me and I was a totally different person.
It's MORE than OK to get help now, to reach out on your own behalf. You don't have to wait for one more crisis, someone else to take control, or any of that. Saying "I'm scared, don't know what to do" and then being willing to accept the help that was offered was the first breakthrough in my recovery.
No one thought less of me for doing so, they were glad I did. They were overjoyed. Many were proud of me for doing so. Most of all I did myself the biggest favor ever, took care of me and saved my life.
I didn't know what would work and what wouldn't. None of it made sense to me. I had to ask, try, feel. But every day I did (and continue to do) something towards my own recovery, and I made progress. My own determination and desire to get sober, combined with effort on my own behalf, has saved and transformed my life...from the inside.
Every time you post here, I see the seed of true recovery, a determination to get better, behind the fear, behind the anger, behind all those other feelings and situations you share with us, I still sense your determination.
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I pray you put that drink down MLC. I know too well what you are feeling and it's a rough spot to be in. ..but know this, there is hope. I wanted someone to save me, rescue me from the hell I was in. You don't have to prove that you need help, those around us are aware of us needing help usually before we are, but we have to take that first step...admit to ourselves that we need help and can't do it alone and ask for help.
I pray you reach out to someone, please, your life IS worth it.
Hugs
I pray you reach out to someone, please, your life IS worth it.
Hugs
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