I give up
I hope you change your mind RQ.
It's not over until you decide it is...if you walk away from recovery now the same things that bought you here are sure to happen again.
However bad today has been, it's just one day - it's not the way things will always be
don't let your inner addict talk you down
D
It's not over until you decide it is...if you walk away from recovery now the same things that bought you here are sure to happen again.
However bad today has been, it's just one day - it's not the way things will always be
don't let your inner addict talk you down
D
I posted something very similar on May 25th last year.
I listened to others who told me it would get better. I haven't had a drink since and you know what? They were right. It has.
Stay with us. You can do this xxx
I listened to others who told me it would get better. I haven't had a drink since and you know what? They were right. It has.
Stay with us. You can do this xxx
Like I said, I hope you change your mind.
Think about it, none of us would still be in recovery if it didn't get better.
It does, and it will - but it will take a little time.
This is you three weeks ago
That starting again never gets easier....it gets harder
You definitely will not regret not writing yourself off tonight when you wake up tomorrow.
We'll be here no matter what you decide RQ
take care,
D
Think about it, none of us would still be in recovery if it didn't get better.
It does, and it will - but it will take a little time.
This is you three weeks ago
I quit cold turkey as well yesterday (although, if you want to get technical, I had my last drink at 8pm monday night so I'm a little over 2 days lol). I'm yet to feel any benefits, but I'll tell you one thing, I NEVER want to go through this again.
You definitely will not regret not writing yourself off tonight when you wake up tomorrow.
We'll be here no matter what you decide RQ
take care,
D
Last edited by Dee74; 02-22-2013 at 01:18 AM. Reason: clarity
How long have you been in recovery RQ? What have you got in the way of support?
I'm thinking as you're posting here, that you care very much. There is a little bit of you that hasn't given up yet. You do want it.
Listen to that part of you. It does get easier. A sober life is far better than a drunk one x
I'm thinking as you're posting here, that you care very much. There is a little bit of you that hasn't given up yet. You do want it.
Listen to that part of you. It does get easier. A sober life is far better than a drunk one x
Hey RQ, you're not having a little tantrum by any chance? I mean you could have just quietly faded away, and no-one would be the wiser. Why did you post? Because as caring and wise as this community is, they can't do it for you.
We'll be here if you change your mind.
We'll be here if you change your mind.
That voice in the head is an insipid cuss. It's hard to share your head with a liar. Really, really hard. She'll lie to you so many times you can lose track of the truth. The truth is YOU want it, or you wouldn't have come here.
Another truth is, we want you back, and we'll be right here whenever you feel like coming back. The sooner the better. God bless.
Another truth is, we want you back, and we'll be right here whenever you feel like coming back. The sooner the better. God bless.
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Hey RQ, you're not having a little tantrum by any chance? I mean you could have just quietly faded away, and no-one would be the wiser. Why did you post? Because as caring and wise as this community is, they can't do it for you.
We'll be here if you change your mind.
We'll be here if you change your mind.
As it would happen, I got a lot of support from various people, and have been chatting to one particular person for the last few hours who managed to calm me down and got me through yet another night. If I had just "faded away" I guarantee you that tonight would not have ended as well as it did. So, in that sense, whatever you assumed my intentions were, this post got me over a hurdle and I don't regret it for one second.
Hi RocketQueen! SO glad you had someone to help you get through your night.
This recovery business is hard work. I get tired about it too. I love to stomp my feet and stick out my lower lip. I'm a pro at it.....and it's not very attractive for a 45 year old!
Keep doing your best. Utilize your support system and keep posting here. These fine folks have helped me get through many bad days.
This recovery business is hard work. I get tired about it too. I love to stomp my feet and stick out my lower lip. I'm a pro at it.....and it's not very attractive for a 45 year old!
Keep doing your best. Utilize your support system and keep posting here. These fine folks have helped me get through many bad days.
Congrats on getting through the night. When you came here you cared about quitting. Unfortunately, your addiction sees it another way. Well done on not giving up, because once you do, a pattern gets established.
I think you said in an earlier post, this was your first "real" attempt. Good for you. I attempted to quit for years and after failing assumed I would drink until I died. Yet here I am, sober for over two years, much of it due to the good folks here on SR who told me to keep sober, no matter what.
Stick with sobriety, please. It's worth it.
I think you said in an earlier post, this was your first "real" attempt. Good for you. I attempted to quit for years and after failing assumed I would drink until I died. Yet here I am, sober for over two years, much of it due to the good folks here on SR who told me to keep sober, no matter what.
Stick with sobriety, please. It's worth it.
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There have been days I feel like throwing in the towel. I wonder all the time if the promises do come true. The truth is there is no guarantee that things will get better but I can guarantee you that drinking or druggin will make things worse. We work so hard to get a day. Then get two or three and after a while a month or so and it keeps going. Your worth it so keep fighting keep trying and use the tools.
RocketQueen,
the will-thing...i spent years with that, trying to do this by will alone. and i couldn't.
what Dee said: knowing who i was/am. not in the "well-****-it-all-i'm-a-drunk-so-i'll-just-keep-drinking" way, but more like: "oh1 i see...i really see! i'm an alcoholic. oh! ****! this is why i..."
in terms of will, i had will, but it was divided. i couldn't access the power to stop until i understood who i was.
and often, like you, i'd say "i don't want it", and that seemed convincingly true at the time, but what was more true was that i didn't know how, was scared to find out, it was too tough to keep going, i was going to damn well impose control and prove i could, and...
good to see you're still here, RQ.
the will-thing...i spent years with that, trying to do this by will alone. and i couldn't.
what Dee said: knowing who i was/am. not in the "well-****-it-all-i'm-a-drunk-so-i'll-just-keep-drinking" way, but more like: "oh1 i see...i really see! i'm an alcoholic. oh! ****! this is why i..."
in terms of will, i had will, but it was divided. i couldn't access the power to stop until i understood who i was.
and often, like you, i'd say "i don't want it", and that seemed convincingly true at the time, but what was more true was that i didn't know how, was scared to find out, it was too tough to keep going, i was going to damn well impose control and prove i could, and...
good to see you're still here, RQ.
I'm glad you're still here too RQ.
And I agree with others here - you were struggling you reached out, you got through it. That's exactly the way this place works.
I'd hate for anyone here to be discouraged from doing that.
D
And I agree with others here - you were struggling you reached out, you got through it. That's exactly the way this place works.
I'd hate for anyone here to be discouraged from doing that.
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So glad you are still here! I was going to reply to the tantrum post earlier but had to head out.
My first thought was Grrrr! Then I thought, actually having a tantrum is no bad thing, getting it out, shouting about it, almost screaming for somebody to help can be very productive... get it all out, let it all out and then there is a certain release.
I wish I'd done this last week.
Well done RQ, I admire you.
My first thought was Grrrr! Then I thought, actually having a tantrum is no bad thing, getting it out, shouting about it, almost screaming for somebody to help can be very productive... get it all out, let it all out and then there is a certain release.
I wish I'd done this last week.
Well done RQ, I admire you.
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