bellajo618

Well, i have struggled for years with drinking. As long as I can remember i have been unsuccessful with it. I've been picking up sporadically, and now it has to come to a stop. My husband is so disappointed and scared; I am too. I feel useless, worthless, and like a failure.
The BEST time of my life is when i went away to rehab for 3 months. Life was anew and I had hope. Today, at day 1 again, I am hopeful, but its just not the same; there's a lot of doubt. I am trying to focus on one day or minute or hour at a time, I am still on the poor me ride and I know where that can get me, which I don't want. So, here I am. Your support is much appreciated.

Sincerely,

Jo

escapist

Hello Jo. I have spent years on the sober relapse merry go round. I got sober here. The are other ways to view alcoholism here. I only knew about AA when I came here. Pleased to meet you.

bellajo618

Hi Escapist,

That made me even more hopeful. I am where you were. I hope to learn about other resources here, and make some life long friends as well.

Thank you for replying,

Jo

2granddaughters

My recovery began in a 90 day rehab in 1989 then straight into AA.

Quitting drinking is one thing, staying quit and getting better is another. I need AA.

All the best.

Bob R

kiki26

Hi Jo! I'm right there with you day two for me. I feel the same so unsure and scared. I just keep reminding myself how how every year it has gotten worse and worse. I can't afford to stay on this path. Support is so helpful!

Adrienne

Hevyn

Hi Jo! I'm glad to hear the good news - that you're trying again. I know it can be done - I drank all my life, and now have 5 yrs. sober. You sound determined this time, and we know you can do it.

Please don't call yourself worthless and a failure, Jo. Failures just give up - they don't keep reaching out for a better life. I know what you mean about the poor me thing - I was very sorry for myself in the beginning, but I got over it. Every day I felt a little better and stronger. You never have to have another Day One. You can do this.

bellajo618

Wow thank you all for your support. I'm feeling more optimistic reading all the positivity.

Sincerely, Jo

Dee74

Welcome Jo

I struggled to stop for 15 years or more...I'm just about to celebrate 6 years sobriety.
SR really helped me turn my life around

Noone is beyond hope and it's never too late

D

neferkamichael

Bellajo, Here I am again at day 1? You are FANTASTIC. Congratulations. Never give up bellajo. You can do it.

exauhsted

You will never be useless,worthless,or a failure as long as you keep reaching out and trying. That's what you are doing, so just keep on keeping on you can do it!!

((HUGS))

YouRmySunshine

Hi Jo, At least you know what 3 months sober looks/feels like.
You are admitting you are ready to put sobriety as your priority again.
You can do this. Heres to a new 24 hrs!