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hello?
massive relapse no longer in denial tonight quit 4 years ago but now 2 years later im still making excuses I surrender to cocaine once again I quit smoking 8 years ago & started again & I quit drink 4 years ago but here I am again doind it again I havent drank since a month ago smoking im not ready but coke i need help i did it once alone but now i have so much **** in my life i have to deal with i cant let go of coke im sure that it effecys me different as it calms me down & makes me chilled im nnot a bad person on it its alcohol so i chose coke as i do it alone (yes i know thats bad but i cant stop this time is different) today the voice which argues with you in your head won! I though I would still in denial? someone just fix me for good !!!

Hellooooo :)

I have hit it before but (relapse) 3 years later im here again i thought i won =( x

Hello,
I am new here too. I have not used in 11 years but my fiance just released from treatment a week ago...told me he's using again.
Here I am fighting not to use again

Welcome to the forum :welcome

If you can please restrain yourself as everybody is reponsibe for their own actions my partner is an alcoholic but it gives me pleasure helping him only tonight he caught me "high" we have never hit a low together but i realise you have to do it for yourself but i cant my role in life is to help others & i am stubben to take my own advice i need people to make me realise i am not alone & helping others helps me too =) xxx

how long has he been clean & how ond are you? x

If your are asking me...
I'm 44, he's 45. He just did 5 yrs came out used returned to prison for a year then treatment for 8 months... now on parole. We've been a couple for 3 years

how does that make you feel? x

I feel lost and horrible...confused....very sad :c021:

I feel ashamed that I am not stronger than this! I kidded myself that I am in control if I was dealing with his issues but now hes getting better it exposes me to my own! I feel I have let own!d I know he doesnt want to be like this & its a cry for help! But the question is does he want the help? or is he just relying on you? Hope your pk chin up babe xxx

are you feeling tempted? Or just let down & dissapointed? xxx

I feel let down and disappointed