Soberlife1117

Well not too sure where to start with this just ready to get my life clean and back to the old me! This all started about 4 years ago taking oxycotin and hydrocodone every now and then off the streets then it started more and more not wanting to get out of bed or even have a life until I had a pill to get me going! I have quit a few times so I do know about withdrawal and I have read many forums and they have helped a lot along the way just reading them but this time I feel like it might help to stay clean the first time I tried to get clean I told my family about it and they helped in every way but they did call everyone they knew I could get them from and tell them they better not find out I'm getting anymore but soon that wore off and I thought a couple here and there would be ok but not!! I'm back where I was and the same people my family told not to be letting me get any of course started back letting me get them more of a money thing to them I guess! But I can't keep taking away from my family and my little girl that is 4 years old from spending all of our money on them. My husband and I both make decent money but we are always broke he just thinks its normal because its always been that way since we both got decent jobs cause I have been taking them ever since! He knows and thinks I get off of them and then I just go right back he thought I quit last Sunday but I have contuined to take them and lie to him I have a few more left and I was planning to take them tomorrow to be able to get a few things done and the whole house cleaned so I can start this journey of withdrawal on a little easier note so that I can rest instead of worrying with the house I only work 3 nights a week on a very laid back job so that's a big plus but I just need some people that understand what I'm going thru to help me along as all of the friends I have now are hook ups or doing the same thing and some r family so as u can c it's all around me so the mind thing and staying away is the hardest part for me I want my old self back!!!

Soberlife1117

I am starting the withdrawal on Tuesday 02/12/2013 I hope 02/11/2013 is the last day I ever see or touch these things!!!

Dee74

Welcome soberlife
I don't know much about hydros but others will.

We also have a substance abuse forum here you might be interested in:
Substance Abuse - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

I hope you will decide to tell your husband - I think it's hard enough to get clean and sober without dragging secrets around too...be kind to yourself

D

Soberlife1117

Thank you so much for your reply!! I did let my husband know what was going on last Sunday but he thought I quit then so I let him know again tonight that it had not stopped but I was serious this time I also let a few close friends know what was going on and the ppl I was getting them from that absolutely no more ever again!!