I think nights are worse for everyone, the days are easier, it's once you've had a full day at work, you get home and do the whole "I deserve a drink", "I need a drink", and you don't, to either. You deserve a better life, and you need to take care of yourself.
Hope you'll stick around, this site is great and you'll get tons of support and hopefully make a lot of new friends.
"When you're green, you grow, when you're ripe, you rot. Don't stop learning." ~ Unknown