deeker

I have learned not to take life so seriously Now that I am sober .
Now if I was still drinking and causing all that chaos then that is pretty serious.

When I began to learn acceptance and powerlessness which I did in the 1st and 3rd steps,It was actually freeing .

I am more able to detach from situations better and not get so drawn in .

I don't take life so seriously as I try to think like this ..

Is this the end of the world? I mean really am I gonna die today if this or that happens or doesn't happen . If I don't get my way .

I have lived thru what I would call the deepest darkest days of my life in my alcoholism, addicition, psych wards, jails and a nursing home .

Anything I go through today sober really should be easy to accept .

Anything I go thru today is just a minor inconvenience compared to where I have come from .

I have also kept a God Box and I look over some of the prayers I have deposited months ago and now I see those problems have all worked out .

So I am beginning to see that In time things work out and I do not need to react now .

I do not have to even get excited cuz I know everything eventually passes .

See I try to have a future perspective on todays events .

Meaning why should I get all upset about something when I know 6 months from now I won't even be thinking about it .

Am I thinking about what was a crisis to me 6 mo ago? Nope , I can't even remember what bothered me 6 mo ago .

So I try my best not to waste my time or effort engaging in that negativity .

I am coming to accept my alcoholism but it has been difficult because I was raised to be tough and strong and because of that it took longer to hit a bottom . Was difficult to admit powerlessness .

I stayed out there a long time trying to prove I could control it and I hit a very low bottom .

But I believe now that I have surrendered that God is going to bring me through anything cuz he already brought me through so much .

I guess I have a lot of faith today. Thanks