Curly

After many failed attempts at sobriety, I'm trying again. Today. After another week of heavy drinking and a giant bruise on my arm after falling and knocking over a table yesterday, I took an antabuse this afternoon and am going to an AA meeting in about an hour.

I am scared, anxious, excited, got a bad case of the shakes. And really worried about filling free time with something other than alcohol. Planning to spend a lot of time on this site. Wish me strength. Thanks.

Coldfusion

I hope we hear from you later, and hope you have a good meeting.

Delilah1

Glad you are here, hope your meeting goes well. Stick close to SR tonight if you are struggling.

nogard

Hi and welcome to SR congrats on getting to a meeting great start. The bruise brought back some memories. Fior years my legs and arms where covered in bruises.

Hope you have plenty of Phone No's and support and keep posting here.

Hevyn

Hi Curly! It's great that you're trying again. I had many failed attempts, but now have 5 yrs. So I know you can do this.

Keep posting - stay with us. You'll find a lot of support and hope here.

junk33

I still have a baseball size bruise from falling over a metal laundry hamper on the last day of my drinking
good luck Curly

vegibean

Hey Curly, hope to see you back later. We're always here, and there's tons of support here. Good luck.

LindaLou

Ahh yes, I remember the bruises...couldn't tell you how I got them tho! Darn blackouts! Hope your meeting was good!

neferkamichael

Curly, I am scared, anxious, excited, got a bad case of the shakes. And really worried about filling free time with something other than alcohol. Planning to spend a lot of time on this site. Wish me strength. Thanks.

Same here Curly except I'm 2 years 7 months sober, I have 1 less problem and life is 100% better. Rootin for ya. :except:

Dee74

welcome back Curly

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least

Glad you're trying again! Never give up!! :ghug3

Xune

Curly, hope you don't wait another 5 years until your next post!

Good luck and may you make good choices!

Klbcarmel

Go Curly!! I'm 20 days sober (again)....
It's nice to have no bruises, no trying to piece the night before together, remembering what I promised to do the next day, no guilt, .......
When I get bored, it's tough....but I think hard on how the hangovers felt! I DON'T want them anymore......no thanks!!
SR open 24/7......

Curly

Made it to a really great meeting last night. Hardly slept, but that's typical. Now taking inventory of the ways my body is adjusting to being sober. Actually, it's still getting sober, most likely. But yesterday's shakes have lightened up a bit, every muscle in my body doesn't hurt today and my head is de-fogging some. Still no energy, but I guess that's not surprising. Now, just gotta figure out how to keep myself occupied all day (sleep would be nice), go to another meeting and make today okay.

Curly

lasted 6 days. oh well.

shoreladylu

The past is the past. Today is another chance for day one. Nice to meet you! Sobriety is nice. Stay a while

ReadyAndAble

This is exactly how I felt when I finally quit for good, so as far as I'm concerned, that's all very good news. Also glad to see you back again today. Six days is solid—we can learn a lot about ourselves and our addiction in six days. Any thoughts on what else you could do? Maybe double-down on the meetings, get some phone numbers of folks you can call, look into starting the step work and all that? I'm not in AA, but whatever route someone goes, I think it needs a full-court press in the first few weeks...

I found that when I was wrestling with cravings and fears and doubts, it helped to pop on SR and post about it. You're still in time to join the January class—you'd find plenty of daily, even hourly support there.

Persistence is the most important thing of all, and you obviously have that. Way to go coming back. You're going to break free of this—and you're going to be incredibly grateful you made the effort.

TiredWolf

Keep at it and keep posting...

Maybe prepare yourself better next time and arrange for some support from AA members via the phone or family to sit with you when you're at home the first several days.

It helped me to watch some funny movies and for some reason eating cold stuff seemed to take the edge off of the shakes and anxiety for short periods...ice cream, Popsicles and plenty of ice cold water and Gatorade.

Get some good reading material lined up to take your mind off of yourself.