Pamel needs her own thread
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Originally Posted by Pamel 
Not doing well... it's not that I drink a lot, but when I get shaky I give in each day. I have been trying to taper. How long do the shaky parts last? I haven't been having those awful cold and hot sweats...maybe that's progress?
Hi Pamel,
Maybe you have to accept the fact you just cannot taper --you have to cut the ties completely. For this you need to have an awakening of sorts that allows this commitment. Perhaps you are just not there yet.
Although the fact that your boyfriend came first instead of the alcohol, is a starting point for your journey into sobriety. Do it out of love for another person. It works sometimes.
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hi Pamel
the shakes are hard to handle - and if you've set them up in your head as something you can't deal with without drinking to calm them, then you put yourself in a bind...
I've been there.
Personally I think the best thing to do is do what I didn't, and forget about the self medication and see a Dr. I was neither a good doctor or a good patient.
It's your call tho, ultimately.
Don't forget there's always hope
I hope you break the cycle today.
let us know how you're doing.
D
the shakes are hard to handle - and if you've set them up in your head as something you can't deal with without drinking to calm them, then you put yourself in a bind...
I've been there.
Personally I think the best thing to do is do what I didn't, and forget about the self medication and see a Dr. I was neither a good doctor or a good patient.
It's your call tho, ultimately.
Don't forget there's always hope
I hope you break the cycle today.
let us know how you're doing.
D
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Threw out what was left of what I was drinking and I hope the morning will be better. Today was not so bad-managed to eat normally. Right now I am just tired and think I can sleep at least till 2 or 3 then take some Benedryl...
Stayed sober most of the day, and busy... was able to take a normal walk outside and I think the exercise helped.
Stayed sober most of the day, and busy... was able to take a normal walk outside and I think the exercise helped.
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Hi friends,
I have been MIA, not because of drinking but because my husband has been going through almost nightly (at least every 4 hours) with either needing me to be there, or getting dressed at 2 AM for another trip to the ER.
Thank goodness he is better today, and has gone off on his first solo journey to the Doctor. ...and that leaves me, to deal with my addiction. Fortunately I am good (so far) in crises, but I have had a shot of booze after putting him to bed, so at least I can sleep 'til the next wake-up call.
We BOTH have a lot of recovery to do now, so I am back here online for all the help you have given me and continued support. Thank you thank you!
I have been MIA, not because of drinking but because my husband has been going through almost nightly (at least every 4 hours) with either needing me to be there, or getting dressed at 2 AM for another trip to the ER.
Thank goodness he is better today, and has gone off on his first solo journey to the Doctor. ...and that leaves me, to deal with my addiction. Fortunately I am good (so far) in crises, but I have had a shot of booze after putting him to bed, so at least I can sleep 'til the next wake-up call.
We BOTH have a lot of recovery to do now, so I am back here online for all the help you have given me and continued support. Thank you thank you!
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Hi Pamel. I stumbled upon your post while you were MIA. I'm happy to see your thread updated! Glad to hear things are looking up and you made it through ok. How are you doing with the shakes? Welcome back!
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Oh Dee, it has been such a difficult week. I have been sober, but severely sleep-deprived. Odd that I am so reliable in crisis situations. I am naming today, noon EST my sober time because it is the first time I can focus on it, and going forward, I am not at all sure I can do another week or two on a wing and a prayer.
It is strange how one can be there for another through AWFUL times, and still be called into question for addiction; this from someone who smokes, is overweight, and has a 15-year Nicorette habit??? (Wonder how much THAT cost???!!!)
Anyway, I now have time for me again, and there is much to do..
It is strange how one can be there for another through AWFUL times, and still be called into question for addiction; this from someone who smokes, is overweight, and has a 15-year Nicorette habit??? (Wonder how much THAT cost???!!!)
Anyway, I now have time for me again, and there is much to do..
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I'm glad things are easing up a bit for you. It's OK to put yourself first sometimes.... I'd say it's even necessary in early sobriety. I had to let a lot of things go in the first days. I just didn't have the physical or mental/emotional energy to do anything but focus on staying sober.
The insomnia is tough to deal with, I know. I just had to settle for resting a lot until things got better. Don't drink - it will only prolong the problem. Keep reading and posting (it helps!) and be good to yourself.
The insomnia is tough to deal with, I know. I just had to settle for resting a lot until things got better. Don't drink - it will only prolong the problem. Keep reading and posting (it helps!) and be good to yourself.
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For many of my clients, I find that therapy never really works and its way too slow. If you are self sabotaging, best interest would say you have an inner conflict in respect to drinking, something pulling you in different directions.
This can be solved by getting extremely clear on what you want for yourself, having enough compelling reasons to stay the course, ones that you remind yourself every day and excite you enough to get out of bed, and writing out where you are taking one step forward and two back. Its amazing what pen and paper can do.
This can be solved by getting extremely clear on what you want for yourself, having enough compelling reasons to stay the course, ones that you remind yourself every day and excite you enough to get out of bed, and writing out where you are taking one step forward and two back. Its amazing what pen and paper can do.
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