New member on Day 8
New member on Day 8
Hi, I'm Steve, 40, and I live in the UK. I stopped drinking on the 22nd of December 2012, with one nights slip up on the 12th of Jan. So I guess this is Day 8.
I wasn't really drinking that much; 2 or 3 beers (or a half bottle of wine) on Wednesday/Thursday evenings, 5 or 6 beers on Friday and Saturday evenings, then a break until Wednesday again.
The initial trigger to stop was my hangovers - they've never been great but recently they've been accompanied by horrible anxiety attacks and I thought it would be a good idea to stop for a while.
Going sober has been harder then I thought. I've realised now that my whole social life has been geared around drinking for over 20 years. I've worked out that most of my drinking wasn't enjoyment, it was to self medicate and to numb out. So now I find myself very worried that what was going to be a short break might actually have to be permanent. I didn't think I was drinking nearly enough to be even considered alcoholic.
Thanks for reading,
Steve
I wasn't really drinking that much; 2 or 3 beers (or a half bottle of wine) on Wednesday/Thursday evenings, 5 or 6 beers on Friday and Saturday evenings, then a break until Wednesday again.
The initial trigger to stop was my hangovers - they've never been great but recently they've been accompanied by horrible anxiety attacks and I thought it would be a good idea to stop for a while.
Going sober has been harder then I thought. I've realised now that my whole social life has been geared around drinking for over 20 years. I've worked out that most of my drinking wasn't enjoyment, it was to self medicate and to numb out. So now I find myself very worried that what was going to be a short break might actually have to be permanent. I didn't think I was drinking nearly enough to be even considered alcoholic.
Thanks for reading,
Steve
Hope to see more posts on your progress.
I'm glad you found us.
It's normal to have been in denial while you were drinking. Denial is a huge component of the disease of alcoholism. Good for you for seeing things clearly now.
It's normal to have been in denial while you were drinking. Denial is a huge component of the disease of alcoholism. Good for you for seeing things clearly now.
to our newcomers! Staying sober is so rewarding to me. Never having to feel like sh!t in the mornings, never waking up hating myself and wishing I were dead. Now I wake up feeling good and ready for whatever the day brings.
I've always enjoyed DIY and it has suffered in recent years but it will be part of my recovery plan. Whenever I'm looking around for something to do (which is a lot now I'm not drinking) thoughts turn to this or that that needs doing!
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