WithoutFear

Dear Everybody out there:

Why, after feeling so good and working so hard at sobriety...WHY does one fall off and have a night of drinking?? After all of that work..and feeling so damn good (physically and mentally!)...WHY sabotage?! I'm very upset

Elisabeth888

Because we think we can just have one...or three. It is your alcoholic voice lying to you.

Dust yourself off and start again.

Jeni26

It's what we alcoholics do. That urge to drink when it comes overrides any rational thought.
Don't beat yourself up. It happens. Perhaps look at what you can do to move up a gear next time.
What are you getting in the way of support?
You can do this.
Today is a new day x

Weasel1966

Without fear.... I hear and can feel your pain. I have been there for sure. I asked the same questions.

The only bit of commentary I can offer is that while I slipped every now and then.... After, what was a lot of work... I got back at it. It knocked the wind out of me... Made me angry. Shameful. But I wanted to feel that sober clarity again.

Try to go easy on yourself. What every that means huh?

Change4good

Because we are alcoholics. It is what we do.

But we don't have to. Strength to you moving forward.

LexieCat

As others here noted, alcoholism does not involve rational decisions to drink. It is drinking because we must.

A lot of people who find themselves unable to STAY stopped have found relief through the AA program. It has worked for me and countless others.

For more about the "why" I suggest you read the first few chapters of the Big Book (AA's basic text). An online copy is here. If you can relate, read the rest of the book, find a meeting near you and get started.

Pamel

I also need a "group".

Try this:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post3780551

I think we need each other in our first week...

drunkyjules

Hi Withoutfear,

I feel you pain. I had been sober and was feeling really good about life, then last night I decided to have a drink and of course drank way to much. Today I am anxious, naseaus and depressed.

I hate this disease and I hate what it does to me. We drink and we take it to far because we are alcoholics, that is just what we do.

We can do better though because there are many people in this forum that do. For me I know I need to accept the fact that alcohol is no longer an option for me.

Moderation does not work for me. I cannot moderate. I think I need to tattoo that on my body, maybe on my hand so if I ever pick up a beer its right there in front of me.

Hang in there. We can do this.

Pamel

Same to you Jules:

Let's try to form our own support group:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post3780551

Pamel (day 1, sigh, again)

2granddaughters

Because you are an alcoholic and that's what we do when our guard is down, naturally.
Could I ask what recovery program you are following?

All the best.

Bob R