Sudden fit of anger and urge to drink
 

I was in the store this morning shopping for breakfast when I had a sudden fit of anger. There was absolutely nothing at all to trigger it, but my thoughts quickly turned to drinking. The urge to just numb it all away was very strong. While I had no idea why I had become so angry, I reminded myself that I was going to accept the feeling and ride it out, without drinking. It was only my alcoholism trying to get me to drink, but the true me had the power to make the final decision. I finished shopping and went home. After some minutes, the anger subsided and I felt back to normal. Thanks to the things I am learning here and doing in my life, I was able to get through it without drinking or avoiding feeling. What an exciting beginning to Day 8!

Jazz, was it a crowd type panic or were you thinking about buying booze at the store?

It was nothing, absolutely nothing.

Oh.

Isn't it amazing how things that used to be the end of the world can just pass like clouds in the sky, and be "nothing."

At least that's what I strive for.

I am in the same boat here on day 7. Last night every fiber in my being was screaming at me to drink. I napped and woke up and the thoughts just flooded my mind. I tried everything when the thoughts first crept in: ignoring them, arguing with them, and eventually I went with the "now idea". I will not drink now. Feel very lucky not to be hungover today.

It's alcoholism. Those are the feelings/thoughts we have when we are sober. That's why we began to drink.

All the best.

Bob R