I'm new and so afraid and messed up
OH SH!T
Join Date: Apr 2004
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Re: I'm new and so afraid and messed up
(((DIANE))))EIGHT DAYS!!!!!!!!YOU GO GIRLY!!!
I'M DOIN GREAT,FIRST THERAPY SESSION STARTS IN A FEW HOURS. :argue:
IT'S GOING TO HELP ME,I HOPE THEY PACKED A LUNCH! :spectacle
KEEP DOIN WHAT YOUR DOIN,IT'S WORKING DIANE!!!
:council: THE GANGS ALL HERE FOR YA.
I'M DOIN GREAT,FIRST THERAPY SESSION STARTS IN A FEW HOURS. :argue:
IT'S GOING TO HELP ME,I HOPE THEY PACKED A LUNCH! :spectacle
KEEP DOIN WHAT YOUR DOIN,IT'S WORKING DIANE!!!
:council: THE GANGS ALL HERE FOR YA.
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Re: I'm new and so afraid and messed up
((((Diane)))) congrats on 8 days, you go girl go. Feels pretty good doesn't it? Keep on moving on, onward we go. :skippy:
Love and hugs.....Denise :kisshug:
Love and hugs.....Denise :kisshug:
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Join Date: Apr 2004
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Re: I'm new and so afraid and messed up
Hey Ted!!
Yup, it will be 9 days this afternoon and I'm still feeling good. I just finished a 30 minute jog- trying to get back into the healthy things again- up until about 2 months ago, I was so dedicated to my exercise program- but then I guess the alcohol took over.
I still haven't had any major cravings- just a few regrets about what I've done and thoughts about future situations where I won't be able to drink. Still, I'm trying to use the rational thinking approach as well as keeping a journal of my thoughts. It seems to help so far. I'm finally enjoying my amazing family again- I can't believe how isolated I became in such a short time!!
Tomorrow, I am going on a business trip- the first one without drinking. I travel quite a bit for a living- I have a consulting business. This will be my first big test. I'll be gone until Friday nite, then out again Monday. I plan to log on from the hotel rooms at nite if possible. I am praying for strength.
How about you? How was your first therapy session? Does it really help? What did you do?
Thank you so much for all of your kind thoughts and check ups! They help me stay strong so much- I only hope I can help you and others the way you all are helping me!
I'll be praying for you too!
Hugs,
Diane
Yup, it will be 9 days this afternoon and I'm still feeling good. I just finished a 30 minute jog- trying to get back into the healthy things again- up until about 2 months ago, I was so dedicated to my exercise program- but then I guess the alcohol took over.
I still haven't had any major cravings- just a few regrets about what I've done and thoughts about future situations where I won't be able to drink. Still, I'm trying to use the rational thinking approach as well as keeping a journal of my thoughts. It seems to help so far. I'm finally enjoying my amazing family again- I can't believe how isolated I became in such a short time!!
Tomorrow, I am going on a business trip- the first one without drinking. I travel quite a bit for a living- I have a consulting business. This will be my first big test. I'll be gone until Friday nite, then out again Monday. I plan to log on from the hotel rooms at nite if possible. I am praying for strength.
How about you? How was your first therapy session? Does it really help? What did you do?
Thank you so much for all of your kind thoughts and check ups! They help me stay strong so much- I only hope I can help you and others the way you all are helping me!
I'll be praying for you too!
Hugs,
Diane
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Join Date: Mar 2003
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Re: I'm new and so afraid and messed up
Diane,
Congrats on the 9 days. I am day 1 down working on 2 myself and the the one thing that I have trouble remembering that I am going to work on ..... is staying just in today. I hear all of the AA slogans and funny thing is that sometimes they mean more than others. I find myself sorry that I can't drink at the next Xmas party, or what about this summer BBQing..etc... I have to just get thru now, today. I was sober for 9 months before this, and I really think that not keeping to that timeframe screwed me up! Anyways, good luck. I am rooting for you!
Congrats on the 9 days. I am day 1 down working on 2 myself and the the one thing that I have trouble remembering that I am going to work on ..... is staying just in today. I hear all of the AA slogans and funny thing is that sometimes they mean more than others. I find myself sorry that I can't drink at the next Xmas party, or what about this summer BBQing..etc... I have to just get thru now, today. I was sober for 9 months before this, and I really think that not keeping to that timeframe screwed me up! Anyways, good luck. I am rooting for you!
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Re: I'm new and so afraid and messed up
HEY DIANE!
DITTO DAN,YOU ARE HELPING OTHERS EVERY TIME YOU POST.
I'M VERY OPEN TO MY THERAPY SESSIONS,MY WAY DID'NT WORK,I'LL TRY ANYTHING POSSITIVE THAT MIGHT HELP ME LEARN TO GROW.
I'M EVEN TRYING ACUPUNTURE ,SUPPOSED TO HELP WITH THE CRAVINGS.
SO GREAT TO HEAR YOUR FAMILY LIFE IS HEALING,MINE TOO!
KEEP IN TOUCH, I,ALONG WITH MANY OTHERS HERE LIKE YOUR COMPANY!
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DITTO DAN,YOU ARE HELPING OTHERS EVERY TIME YOU POST.
I'M VERY OPEN TO MY THERAPY SESSIONS,MY WAY DID'NT WORK,I'LL TRY ANYTHING POSSITIVE THAT MIGHT HELP ME LEARN TO GROW.
I'M EVEN TRYING ACUPUNTURE ,SUPPOSED TO HELP WITH THE CRAVINGS.
SO GREAT TO HEAR YOUR FAMILY LIFE IS HEALING,MINE TOO!
KEEP IN TOUCH, I,ALONG WITH MANY OTHERS HERE LIKE YOUR COMPANY!
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Re: I'm new and so afraid and messed up
Congrats Diane!
Good that your realizing you have the power within you to do this. Traveling does not make it easy on some, to much availability. Make a plan, just in case you get to tempted. If you have someone's number that is helping your through this then make sure if you get buggy to call! Make sure you tell the flight attendants no drinky poo to be offered, and make sure your ask the hotel to remove the mini-bar. Just set yourself up for success! Check in from the hotel as I think those are the hard nights.
Keep up the good work!
Good that your realizing you have the power within you to do this. Traveling does not make it easy on some, to much availability. Make a plan, just in case you get to tempted. If you have someone's number that is helping your through this then make sure if you get buggy to call! Make sure you tell the flight attendants no drinky poo to be offered, and make sure your ask the hotel to remove the mini-bar. Just set yourself up for success! Check in from the hotel as I think those are the hard nights.
Keep up the good work!
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Join Date: Mar 2003
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Re: I'm new and so afraid and messed up
Thanks guys! Sober feels good today. I think I will try it out. I just don't want to be THAT anymore. My husband (or whatever you want to call him) is not going to love this. He will be protective of his own useage. I don't know how to be good at letting him do his deal, and me keep my side of the fence clean. I will work on that. Anyhow, didn't mean to scoop the thread!
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Join Date: Apr 2004
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Re: I'm new and so afraid and messed up
Hi Jamie,
Just hang in there! I'm glad sober feels good today- it will again tomorrow, too. Just concentrate on yourself- your husband will either come around or not- but you need to think about yourself right now. That's what everyone keeps telling me- I have to be most important to me now- so that I can come back and be here for my family as the healthy, happy sober person that I know is inside!
I know the feeling sorry about not being able to drink- we have a houseboat and spend most of our summer weekends skiing and playing watersports- much of it has revolved around drinking. Luckily, my husband has been leaning toward eliminating the drink- especially because we want to set a good example for our boys who are now getting old enough to recognize drinking and drunks!
We'll just have to keep taking it one day, one hour or one minute at a time!!
Hi Ted! You sound great! Hmmmmmm, Acupuncture? Sounds scary-but hey, if it works- I'm game!
Hugs and prayers for all of you and your families!!
Love,
Diane
Just hang in there! I'm glad sober feels good today- it will again tomorrow, too. Just concentrate on yourself- your husband will either come around or not- but you need to think about yourself right now. That's what everyone keeps telling me- I have to be most important to me now- so that I can come back and be here for my family as the healthy, happy sober person that I know is inside!
I know the feeling sorry about not being able to drink- we have a houseboat and spend most of our summer weekends skiing and playing watersports- much of it has revolved around drinking. Luckily, my husband has been leaning toward eliminating the drink- especially because we want to set a good example for our boys who are now getting old enough to recognize drinking and drunks!
We'll just have to keep taking it one day, one hour or one minute at a time!!
Hi Ted! You sound great! Hmmmmmm, Acupuncture? Sounds scary-but hey, if it works- I'm game!
Hugs and prayers for all of you and your families!!
Love,
Diane
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Re: I'm new and so afraid and messed up
(((DIANE)))
HUBBY IS VERY SUPPORTIVE,THAT HELPS DOES'NT IT.
AS PARENTS WE SET THE EXAMPLE TO OUR CHILDREN,
LOOKS LIKE YOUR CHILDREN HAVE JUST THAT!
A GOOD EXAMPLE.I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU DIANE.
YOUR MAKING BIG STEPS FORWARD IN YOUR RECOVERY!
KEEP US POSTED. ted
NO MORE :titanic JUST :boat SAILING ALONG
HUBBY IS VERY SUPPORTIVE,THAT HELPS DOES'NT IT.
AS PARENTS WE SET THE EXAMPLE TO OUR CHILDREN,
LOOKS LIKE YOUR CHILDREN HAVE JUST THAT!
A GOOD EXAMPLE.I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU DIANE.
YOUR MAKING BIG STEPS FORWARD IN YOUR RECOVERY!
KEEP US POSTED. ted
NO MORE :titanic JUST :boat SAILING ALONG
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Re: I'm new and so afraid and messed up
Hi Ted, everyone,
Well I did it- one trip down and one to go- I leave tomorrow night. I was amazed that I really didn't have what I would call cravings to drink- more just sudden "pop-up" thoughts- like, "hmm, if this was a few weeks ago, I'd be heading for the Crown room for a few pre flight drinks', or " Well, here I am alone in my hotel room- this is when I used to love to drink myself to sleep", etc. I refused the mini-bar key- though that wasn't really too hard- those 2 little bottles of vodka would never be enough and I really can't stomach anything brown- hate gin or rum- I used to bring my own. Ha!
Hope all of you are doing well and have a great, peaceful weekend!
Love, Diane
Well I did it- one trip down and one to go- I leave tomorrow night. I was amazed that I really didn't have what I would call cravings to drink- more just sudden "pop-up" thoughts- like, "hmm, if this was a few weeks ago, I'd be heading for the Crown room for a few pre flight drinks', or " Well, here I am alone in my hotel room- this is when I used to love to drink myself to sleep", etc. I refused the mini-bar key- though that wasn't really too hard- those 2 little bottles of vodka would never be enough and I really can't stomach anything brown- hate gin or rum- I used to bring my own. Ha!
Hope all of you are doing well and have a great, peaceful weekend!
Love, Diane
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