Who am I?!
 

Hi everyone,

This morning I woke with a curious thought, one which I haven't had in the 7 months i've been sober; "who am I?". This wasn't the nerve-wracking, self-seeking kind of question i'd been familiar with in the past. I was always very hell-bent on validation and gratification from external sources.

What became crystal clear is that my fundamental values have solidified and I really don't want to deviate from them; sobriety, health, family, friends, fellowship, service. TODAY I can live in accordance with these values and not just talk about them. My life is richer than ever!

I might speak less than I used to, but the words are generally said with or for a purpose. This might be misconstrued as boring (;)), but i'm not content to indulge in being passive-aggressive, gossip, give my opinion on absolutely everything to everyone, save anyone, nor indulge in sarcasm or unnecessary wit to cut anyone down and make myself feel better. It's more than "not being content", it's just that the urge to behave in these ways has died off by and large.

The compulsion to drink left at least 3 months ago, I can't pinpoint exactly when.

Is this a result of putting in the footwork and letting go of the outcome when i've let my HP in? I believe so, yes. I have a sneaking suspicion that some of the Promises that are frequently read out at the conclusion of AA meetings are coming true :)

Thanks for sharing Quinne.
Glad life is good for you.

Quinne:

Sounds like you're done drying out and starting to get sober... :c033:

All the best.

Bob R

Hello Quinne,

You probably know what I am going to say....
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it works if you work it.

But you know that because you're doing it.

Natom.

Great post...Thanks for the share.

Fabulous post!!

You just gave a "day 2" so much hope!!! That just made me feel like i can go to bed without desiring a drink because i am on a path to get to know who i really am.

Who are you .. you ask? Your an inspiration...

This is-I believe-is the beauty and crux of sharing, Committed2Change :) Your words are also of immense assistance to my recovery too!

Xx

I agree with C2C ( 3 days here ) thanks for this post ;)