Sober and loving life
mergirl
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Sober and loving life
4 years and counting, yeehaw. I came to these forums a hot mess. I started drinking at 14, and I drank for 28 years, pause for pregnancy, pretty much every night. My last drunk was December 28th, 2008, and when I woke up from a black out I was told by one of my children what I had done the night before.
I have never wanted a drink since, relapse is not part of my story today. I was so deeply ashamed, I figured the best way to punish myself was to give up my medicine, my best friend, my booze. I got sober as a punishment, and it made me predictably miserable for a good while.
I came to SoberRecovery as "Ugly Eyes", as I could not look myself in the mirror. I wanted nothing to do with AA, recovery or a spiritual connection, I wanted only to understand why I had turned into such a monster.
People here gave me my first glimmer of hope. I was not alone.A woman here guided me to feel my first taste of the Sunlight of the Spirit, and I am forever thankful to Grateful2Be and so many others.
We had a pretty good size "class of Decemeber 08" thread, not many are left. Addiction is cunning, baffling and powerful indeed.
I found my way into AA, against my "better judgement" and that is where I spend much of my time today, being of service and learning to love and be loved. My life today is amazing. If I had picked up a book that described a character with the life I am leading, I would put it down as too wonderful to be believed.
The day I got sober I lived in a garage with no windows, in a not very nice city, in an icky climate.
Today I live steps from the California shore, I can hear the waves crash as I type this. I love my job, my significant other is sober many years and pretty fabulous. My children and I are close and my other relations are much healed. I have abundant Love and joy in my life, and very little fear, which is exactly opposite of where I was 4 years ago.
Just as importantly, I have gone through the death of a loved one, the loss of a job, health issues and other rough patches and never needed nor wanted a drink to "ease" me through. Because that is one of the lies of alcohol I have uncovered and discarded, it doesn't "ease" anything as far as I am concerned.
I go camping, I go to concerts, I go dancing and to parties, and I enjoy them without alcohol and without falling on my face. Plus I remember them the next day!
If you are here looking for a new way of living, freedom from drugs or alcohol, freedom from problems with loved ones drinking or using, freedom from gambling, eating disorders, fear, shame or what ever other chains shackle you, you have come to the right place.
I wish you all peace and strength on your journey, and I thank you all for my life.
I have never wanted a drink since, relapse is not part of my story today. I was so deeply ashamed, I figured the best way to punish myself was to give up my medicine, my best friend, my booze. I got sober as a punishment, and it made me predictably miserable for a good while.
I came to SoberRecovery as "Ugly Eyes", as I could not look myself in the mirror. I wanted nothing to do with AA, recovery or a spiritual connection, I wanted only to understand why I had turned into such a monster.
People here gave me my first glimmer of hope. I was not alone.A woman here guided me to feel my first taste of the Sunlight of the Spirit, and I am forever thankful to Grateful2Be and so many others.
We had a pretty good size "class of Decemeber 08" thread, not many are left. Addiction is cunning, baffling and powerful indeed.
I found my way into AA, against my "better judgement" and that is where I spend much of my time today, being of service and learning to love and be loved. My life today is amazing. If I had picked up a book that described a character with the life I am leading, I would put it down as too wonderful to be believed.
The day I got sober I lived in a garage with no windows, in a not very nice city, in an icky climate.
Today I live steps from the California shore, I can hear the waves crash as I type this. I love my job, my significant other is sober many years and pretty fabulous. My children and I are close and my other relations are much healed. I have abundant Love and joy in my life, and very little fear, which is exactly opposite of where I was 4 years ago.
Just as importantly, I have gone through the death of a loved one, the loss of a job, health issues and other rough patches and never needed nor wanted a drink to "ease" me through. Because that is one of the lies of alcohol I have uncovered and discarded, it doesn't "ease" anything as far as I am concerned.
I go camping, I go to concerts, I go dancing and to parties, and I enjoy them without alcohol and without falling on my face. Plus I remember them the next day!
If you are here looking for a new way of living, freedom from drugs or alcohol, freedom from problems with loved ones drinking or using, freedom from gambling, eating disorders, fear, shame or what ever other chains shackle you, you have come to the right place.
I wish you all peace and strength on your journey, and I thank you all for my life.
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Hello My Friend,
That was nice to read - pure and inspirational. I hope it provides motivation to many. I know it does for me and Im going on only 4 months.
Good for you - enjoy every sober day, you have earned it.
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Being Sober > Any Temptation
That was nice to read - pure and inspirational. I hope it provides motivation to many. I know it does for me and Im going on only 4 months.
Good for you - enjoy every sober day, you have earned it.
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Being Sober > Any Temptation
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It works if you work it...It is pretty amazing. I was blessed to find my way into AA also.....I was broken....A lot has changed in a year and a half for me....It just gets better. Thanks for your share...It was beautiful.
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