HereIAm321

After my AA meeting, I went and bought a 32 oz bottle of beer. Drank about 6 oz of it, then all of a sudden my will power kicked back in and I was DISGUSTED at myself. Absolutely livid with myself. Poured the rest out.

I was sober for 3 days and had no desire for the poison. Now my new date is 1/3 instead of 1/1.

I actually feel nauseous now, psychosomatic reaction. Maybe it was all the coffee I had today though....

Dee74

Try and work out why you drank...work out ways to avoid that next time....then leave it behind...dust yourself down and start again...

In 50 years the difference between 1/3 and 1/1 won't keep you up at night

D

HereIAm321

I'm pretty proud that I didn't even drink a whole beer (12 oz), but only 6 oz. And that my will just "kicked in" and said "What the f*** do you think you're doing, lady? Throw that **** out!!!!! You HATE what this does to you, don't ALLOW yourself to slip back down into hell!"

drunkyjules

At least you stopped and poured the rest out! You should be proud of yourself because that took some willpower!

Then do what Dee said, sounds like good advice.

Dorris

Be proud you poured it away, it could have so easily have gone the other way and you would be posting regret.

Remeber your strenght and use that to stop you from buying more x

Anna

As Dee said, I think it's important to know the reason that you decided to drink. I think that's the best way to prevent it from happening again.

Bubovski

We all really need to be ever vigilant 24/7. Down times ard particularly dangerous.

nogard

Yep work out what happened and how your recovery will include that in the future

Missy7

Be very proud you poured it out. Once I crack one open I'm off to the races. If you can pour out part of a beer, you can go all the way.

Sasha4

Maybe it is something as simple as you always wind down when you get home with a beer? And thats a habit but habits can be hard to break.

I used to wind down every night with a few glasses of wine, which got more and more.
In fact I felt strange when I was at home, it was after 8pm and I did not have a glass of wine ready.
I would avoid going out in the evening, so I could be at home for my glass of wine.
My whole goal of getting my daughter to bed, was to have a glass of wine.

When I was a smoker, I could not have a telephone conversation without my cigarettes, lighter and ashtray next to me.

I also stopped seeing a drink of booze as a reward after a long day.
For me alcohol is no reward.
It wrecks lives.

Just my thoughts.
And I agree - you did awesome pouring it away.

Maybe think of it another way?
You would have normally drunk all the beer, but AA has started to get in the way of you doing that. And that is great!

Its progress, not perfection.

sugarbear1

Meetings don't keep me sober. That is where I found a sponsor, though. She guided me through the steps.

Those 12 steps saved my life.

sugarbear1