New Year's Eve Sober- Anyone else worried about it?
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New Year's Eve Sober- Anyone else worried about it?
Not that I need an excuse, but is anyone else having an issue seeing every one else able to go and get their drinks and celebrate their new years by partying and drinking?
I'm finding myself not wanting to drink, but trying to explain to myself that I'm like them...
I know I'm not, but my mind keeps tricking me into thinking I could be.
I'm finding myself not wanting to drink, but trying to explain to myself that I'm like them...
I know I'm not, but my mind keeps tricking me into thinking I could be.
My mind tries to find ways to justify or rationalize drinking, tries to trick me into drinking again. It's sneaky. But I'm learning to recognize it. To me, my obsession and fantasies of being a 'normal' drinker again further proves I'm an alcoholic..because the non-alcoholic people I know don't seem to struggle with these insane thought processes.
For me, New years won't be too much of a trigger. Seems like just another day. I will watch the ball drop on TV, and stay home and read. There are a few AA meetings in my area if I need a place to go. Takin it easy, No biggie.
For me, New years won't be too much of a trigger. Seems like just another day. I will watch the ball drop on TV, and stay home and read. There are a few AA meetings in my area if I need a place to go. Takin it easy, No biggie.
Guess I misunderstood your initial post where you wrote:
"...anyone else having an issue seeing every one else able to go and get their drinks and celebrate their new years by partying and drinking?"
If you are at home, I figured you wouldn't "see" anyone drinking. But I guess if you see them in your mind, it's just as bad.
"...anyone else having an issue seeing every one else able to go and get their drinks and celebrate their new years by partying and drinking?"
If you are at home, I figured you wouldn't "see" anyone drinking. But I guess if you see them in your mind, it's just as bad.
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I'm going out tonight!!! Strait to a meeting!! Maybe a couple.. We're having a pot luck deal tonight!! Hope everyone has a great 2013!!! Stay strong tonight.. New Years is a major trigger for me so I'm hanging out with my buds at the meeting!!
I felt the same way the first Friday night I spent sober.... Just remember those thoughts/feelings come from the addiction and you don't have to act on them.
Our addiction always romanticizes the scenario. Try playing the tape all the way through to the end result. Think about how you want to wake up tomorrow . And just keep hanging out with us - you can get through this!:ghug3
Our addiction always romanticizes the scenario. Try playing the tape all the way through to the end result. Think about how you want to wake up tomorrow . And just keep hanging out with us - you can get through this!:ghug3
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I'm feeling super weak right now. I have access to alcohol and keep thinking of using it... I think that's the hard part. I have access... but drinking is more than a risk... It's a death sentence... But it still doesn't feel that risky...
So confused.
So confused.
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I hear you box guy, 16 days in and I don't think I'm ready to be at a house party just yet.
So it's a night in for me and even thinking about going for run in the morning!! How my life has changed in even a short time, lol : )
So it's a night in for me and even thinking about going for run in the morning!! How my life has changed in even a short time, lol : )
Turtle power,
I quit two years ago and don't care to go to parties with all the drunks saying drunk meaningless things over and over like I used to. It was a death sentence to me.
Now why aren't you responding to the offered option of going to an AA meeting? It is beginning to sound like you are just looking for an excuse. I had access to liquor the whole time. I read so many that say they could not handle it in close proximity. Folks I can drive to the liquor store in under ten minutes and be back here drinking like in the old days before I had to drink in the morning to stop shaking. My wife still drinks and keeps a half gallon of Scotch in the house. I have to move it to get to the saltines in the pantry we keep them in. What is the difference in having it in the house because, and only because, another in the house drinks normally, or having it accessible in ten minutes? I decided I don't want to drink and die too soon. I wanted to live. I wanted out of the shame and waking up scared because I wasn't sure exactly what I said or did. I wasn't a big party goer, and had my two boys when we were 19 and the second at 23. So we stayed home more often that not. Once over 30 the clubs had no attraction as the kids were too young that they were catering to, and drunks are booooooring!
Go to a meeting! Get over it. Live and prosper.
I quit two years ago and don't care to go to parties with all the drunks saying drunk meaningless things over and over like I used to. It was a death sentence to me.
Now why aren't you responding to the offered option of going to an AA meeting? It is beginning to sound like you are just looking for an excuse. I had access to liquor the whole time. I read so many that say they could not handle it in close proximity. Folks I can drive to the liquor store in under ten minutes and be back here drinking like in the old days before I had to drink in the morning to stop shaking. My wife still drinks and keeps a half gallon of Scotch in the house. I have to move it to get to the saltines in the pantry we keep them in. What is the difference in having it in the house because, and only because, another in the house drinks normally, or having it accessible in ten minutes? I decided I don't want to drink and die too soon. I wanted to live. I wanted out of the shame and waking up scared because I wasn't sure exactly what I said or did. I wasn't a big party goer, and had my two boys when we were 19 and the second at 23. So we stayed home more often that not. Once over 30 the clubs had no attraction as the kids were too young that they were catering to, and drunks are booooooring!
Go to a meeting! Get over it. Live and prosper.
I agree with itchy go to a meeting. In the UK AA has a 24 hour call service you can phone if you want help. They put you in touch with someone in your area (someone fmthe same gender) who will meet you or meet you at a meeting. I'm guessing it will be the same where you are from.
Please give the line a call now, I think it will help you.
Please give the line a call now, I think it will help you.
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