Same place, 2 different Christmas experiences.
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Same place, 2 different Christmas experiences.
Everyone is sitting in the kitchen/diner. I'm in the living room watching tv, alone. U can hear them laughing, having fun. I'm climbing the walls, alternating between tears and rage that I can't be in there "enjoying" a drink at Christmas with my family. Its my sister's house. I give up and go home, leaving them to their merriment.
Flip forward a few years to this iyear. I'm now almost 3 years without a drink. I'm sitting in that kitchen/diner with everyone having a laugh. I'm at the big table amongst all the various bottles and drinks and people enjoying drinking - none of whom seem to have any drinking issues BTW. I'm there for a long time before it strikes me that I even had/have a problem with booze. It was a very nice feeling. Thinking back to that lonely misery on my own in the past when I thought I was doomed to being MR BORING for the rest of my days. Ha!Ha!Ha!
I made 4 or 5 trips running everyone home. Funny thing was no one was bladdered! Previously I was sure they all would have been. It was a pleasure being fit enough to be able to do so.
Early on in sobriety it can feel like its never going to get better. And it never seems to happen anywhere near quick enough. If I knew then what I knew now I would have been able to just R.E.L.A.X. a wee bit more
I wouldn't have expected too much too soon but would have had the firm conviction that things WOULD eventually get SO much easier.
I wish you the best for the new year guys, and if you are struggling, hang in there, its just another day.
Stu.
Flip forward a few years to this iyear. I'm now almost 3 years without a drink. I'm sitting in that kitchen/diner with everyone having a laugh. I'm at the big table amongst all the various bottles and drinks and people enjoying drinking - none of whom seem to have any drinking issues BTW. I'm there for a long time before it strikes me that I even had/have a problem with booze. It was a very nice feeling. Thinking back to that lonely misery on my own in the past when I thought I was doomed to being MR BORING for the rest of my days. Ha!Ha!Ha!
I made 4 or 5 trips running everyone home. Funny thing was no one was bladdered! Previously I was sure they all would have been. It was a pleasure being fit enough to be able to do so.
Early on in sobriety it can feel like its never going to get better. And it never seems to happen anywhere near quick enough. If I knew then what I knew now I would have been able to just R.E.L.A.X. a wee bit more
I wouldn't have expected too much too soon but would have had the firm conviction that things WOULD eventually get SO much easier.I wish you the best for the new year guys, and if you are struggling, hang in there, its just another day.
Stu.
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Great story Chopper.
It is such great feeling when that obsession to drink leaves us isn't it?
I managed 2 Christmas parties, and a household of dysfunctional family members and it didnt cross my mind to drink.
I never thought it possible. But it does actually happen!
Hang in there guys. It is so worth it x
It is such great feeling when that obsession to drink leaves us isn't it?
I managed 2 Christmas parties, and a household of dysfunctional family members and it didnt cross my mind to drink.
I never thought it possible. But it does actually happen!
Hang in there guys. It is so worth it x
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Originally Posted by ChopperTS 
Early on in sobriety it can feel like its never going to get better. And it never seems to happen anywhere near quick enough. If I knew then what I knew now I would have been able to just R.E.L.A.X. a wee bit more I wouldn't have expected too much too soon but would have had the firm conviction that things WOULD eventually get SO much easier.
I wouldn't have expected too much too soon but would have had the firm conviction that things WOULD eventually get SO much easier.
This really needs repeating often. Mind you, I think I wanted to punch people who told me it got better early on 
... It does though x
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Originally Posted by ChopperTS
I made 4 or 5 trips running everyone home. Funny thing was no one was bladdered! Previously I was sure they all would have been. It was a pleasure being fit enough to be able to do so.
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