lilgolden73

I didn't think your post was preachy at all! Jane.....I wanna delete my FB account, but like you that is how I keep up with people....I have a love hate relationship with it!

BabyJane

tikay - you don't sound preachy I think it was a good, honest answer about dealing with one of life's more challenging emotions. Jealousy is dangerous. For me it's right up there with resentment. All of it is based on fear; fear that I don't measure up, fear that I'm no good, fear of what people must think of me... My goal is to move past that while maintaining my humanity and caring spirit. Basically, when I was using heroin I really didnt give a s**t about what you or anyone else was doing or saying on Facebook or wherever. I lived in an opiate bubble. It was all me. Now I care a little too much maybe? People look at me wrong and I freak. Lol. But at least I'm able to connect with others on some level. This will pass. Today was just a negative day for me all around. The second I left my house I wanted to bite the first person I saw on the hand like a stray dog. Not good. Maybe tomorrow I'll pray, hit a meeting, meditate, go jogging... Something. I just don't know what to do with all the emotions. Ugh.

Lyoness

I can relate BabyJane. With opiates we are used to controlling our emotions, deciding exactly how we will feel--or won't feel. I lived in that pink bubble/opiate haze for a long time, too, eventually it was the only thing I wanted. I sure as hell didn't want to deal with my emotions, especially the ever-growing guilt, shame, remorse and misery my addiciton was causing.

Dealing with my emotions is a new thing, now. I don't have my one and only true coping method, opiates, but I haven't fully created new ones yet, either. It's a tough spot to be in. I just keep trying and trying and do my best to accept my emotions when I have them. I'm not feeling too successful yet but I'm just having faith that it will happen. Just by not getting high I am doing something new.

Like folks above said, I am an oddball, too, always have felt like an outcast since nursery school I think. I have just a couple of really close friends and they are helping me, they accept me for who I am.

I also find I really only want to hang out with other oddballs like me, folks who may not be successful in societies' eyes but whose goals are similar to mine--self-healing, growth, trying in whatever tiny way I can to help others.

You're doing great, BabyJane, walking a very difficult path. Recovery ain't easy and every day you try you are a true success!

Xune

Ahem....

I know of a woman who posted she lives in a million dollar home.

She does not live in a home that is even remotely close to a million dollars. She also has a perfect hubby, perfect kids and a perfect life.

Yeah, she calls him 'hubby' as well.

firestorm090

What about those of us who don't have a facebook page and don't want one?

At least I finally got rid of the horse and buggy, lol.

Next, indoor plumbing, lol.

ReadyAndAble

You mean this isn't Facebook?

Dee74

^

LOL

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Lyoness

My cabin has no plumbing and I use an outhouse--yes in this day and age! And I like it!

MidnightBlue

Hi, BabyJane.

I agree with all that was posted above) And, as for me, I have no Facebook account at all.

Have a good day)