Back Home scary
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Back Home scary
Hey everyone.
Well for the past 6 months i have been in a structured environment and was doing well. It was bumpy at first but i grew alot. last night i came home finally. Scary!!! Its a new home, new everything. New sobriety, now i have failed before but by my own doing, i didnt put effort into myself and fell after 9 months. and honestly i dont think i was ready then anyway. Now i have sort of a guide of what to look out for and what triggers me and the efforts i need to put in on a daily basis, sometimes every minute. I am sooooo nervous. I have to relearn life pretty much, i have been gone in my addiction for almost 14 years, since i was 12... I am so emotionally young and i do not know how to handle alot of things in a productive healthy way. I still have not dealt with the death of a close family member from almost 2 years ago, but now i am facing it and refuse to resort to drinking. It is so hard to face the demons within myself, and i think i am a bit overwhelmed. I have meetings close by (well 30 miles anyway) and i have numbers, and here of course which i believe every one here will be a major help... Any input is great.
Well for the past 6 months i have been in a structured environment and was doing well. It was bumpy at first but i grew alot. last night i came home finally. Scary!!! Its a new home, new everything. New sobriety, now i have failed before but by my own doing, i didnt put effort into myself and fell after 9 months. and honestly i dont think i was ready then anyway. Now i have sort of a guide of what to look out for and what triggers me and the efforts i need to put in on a daily basis, sometimes every minute. I am sooooo nervous. I have to relearn life pretty much, i have been gone in my addiction for almost 14 years, since i was 12... I am so emotionally young and i do not know how to handle alot of things in a productive healthy way. I still have not dealt with the death of a close family member from almost 2 years ago, but now i am facing it and refuse to resort to drinking. It is so hard to face the demons within myself, and i think i am a bit overwhelmed. I have meetings close by (well 30 miles anyway) and i have numbers, and here of course which i believe every one here will be a major help... Any input is great.
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Originally Posted by totalchange 
Hey everyone.
Well for the past 6 months i have been in a structured environment and was doing well. It was bumpy at first but i grew alot. last night i came home finally. Scary!!! Its a new home, new everything. New sobriety, now i have failed before but by my own doing, i didnt put effort into myself and fell after 9 months. and honestly i dont think i was ready then anyway. Now i have sort of a guide of what to look out for and what triggers me and the efforts i need to put in on a daily basis, sometimes every minute. I am sooooo nervous. I have to relearn life pretty much, i have been gone in my addiction for almost 14 years, since i was 12... I am so emotionally young and i do not know how to handle alot of things in a productive healthy way. I still have not dealt with the death of a close family member from almost 2 years ago, but now i am facing it and refuse to resort to drinking. It is so hard to face the demons within myself, and i think i am a bit overwhelmed. I have meetings close by (well 30 miles anyway) and i have numbers, and here of course which i believe every one here will be a major help... Any input is great.
Well for the past 6 months i have been in a structured environment and was doing well. It was bumpy at first but i grew alot. last night i came home finally. Scary!!! Its a new home, new everything. New sobriety, now i have failed before but by my own doing, i didnt put effort into myself and fell after 9 months. and honestly i dont think i was ready then anyway. Now i have sort of a guide of what to look out for and what triggers me and the efforts i need to put in on a daily basis, sometimes every minute. I am sooooo nervous. I have to relearn life pretty much, i have been gone in my addiction for almost 14 years, since i was 12... I am so emotionally young and i do not know how to handle alot of things in a productive healthy way. I still have not dealt with the death of a close family member from almost 2 years ago, but now i am facing it and refuse to resort to drinking. It is so hard to face the demons within myself, and i think i am a bit overwhelmed. I have meetings close by (well 30 miles anyway) and i have numbers, and here of course which i believe every one here will be a major help... Any input is great.
The rehab was just the beginning, I needed it to be able to do AA.
All the best.
Bob R
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Originally Posted by FreeFall
Welcome home! Be kind to yourself and take small steps. It will all come together as you get stronger. You can do this!
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Hi totalchange. It's not surprising you're feeling challenged by this big change. It sounds like you're handling it very well, considering. I hope you'll keep posting here - everyone understands how you're feeling. Not being alone really helps.
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When you feel that feeling to drink. JUST SAY NO!!! The urge will pass. It worked for
me tonight about an hour ago. I was home alone, perfect time to do some drugs'. But I talked to myself and said NO.
Congrats on your 90 days.
me tonight about an hour ago. I was home alone, perfect time to do some drugs'. But I talked to myself and said NO.
Congrats on your 90 days.
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