beckieleigh

Ok so ive been 40 days sober my "boyfriend" threw a bag of coke in front of me and said lets see how good your self control is. I started crying because i know im poerless over it. so did the bag, went to qa party the next day crying to hom cuz i just need one more line. Did it all he smoked crack infront of me whatever. The next party on sat he left with someother girl cuz o couldnt find my boots. And he "promised" to take care of her so me and j did everything he had. I feel so guilty and now ive done over a g of mdma up my nose and drank a 26... Help

coraltint

the drugs aren't fun anymore, beck. hang it up. how did u stay sober for 40 days? start doing that again tmrw & come back here for support.

we're here for ya

Dee74

I'm sorry Beckie.
Sounds to me like you could really do with some more sober support - and leaving that 'boyfriend' in the dust.

I had people who wanted to keep me drunk and high - it suited their agenda.
You don't need to play that game.

look after yourself - what kind of support do you have?
D

Rusty Zipper

ditch the BF beckyi,

and get back on track again

hamabi

Wow, great guy there.

Being without someone who cares so little about you would be a giant step up.

Drugssucks

Ditch the B/F. He obviously doesn't care about you. You'll be much better off without him. Hang in there.

bi11fish

Sorry to hear your troubles, what kind of friend is this boy. He wants to keep you sick so he can control you. Kick the ***** to the curb.

Caledonia1

Sending hugs to you Beckie.

Keep posting, we're all here to support you but you seriously need to think of ditching the boyfriend.

Take Care and when you feel better just learn from it and get stronger.
x

Thepatman

Same as others about that BOY. Notice I removed the friend part.

A really friend would never do that to you. I kicked by Girl this summer also. A month sober and she's drinking Rye in my face.

Gooooooodby Girlnotmyfriend

Mulch

People who care about you do NOT treat you that way. Period. I think you probably know that, and you probably know you can't change someone. It is how it is, and it's not good ...... So - how about beginning today to surround yourself with people who will lift your spirits, and slowly (or quickly) move away from those who will drag you down. In every situation, ask yourself if it feels "positive" .... If not, you have the option and the right to say No, and to turn your back and try a different direction (example: drinking/drug parties). You are the only one who is in control of YOU. If anyone has a problem with that, they're not the right friend or partner for you. You have every right to try to be happy how ever you choose to do so.

(Think of it as a third party ... How would you advise a friend in the same situation? What would you say to them?)

How about starting by thinking about your short- and long-term goals ... and writing out a plan to pursue them ... (No. 1 being sobriety - think about who will help support you - AA, counsellor, family members, certain friends or new friends? .. ... And then where do you want your life to go? - maybe make new friends, have new experiences, nice job, some courses, a house, kids, activities ... Happiness.)

It starts with You. You can do this.

Anna

I hope you dump the 'boyfriend'.

You will find lots of support here, so keep posting and reading.

MIRecovery

DUMP HIM

You deserve better and will be the person you want to be

TTBABP

Hang in! Seems there is a consensus about dumping the boyfriend.

MIRecovery

Score Card

Dump him 13
Keep him 0

Lyoness

Make that 14! Definitely get rid of all the people who want to keep you sick and using. And like everyone has said, seek people and places that support you in recovery!