Committment
I still can't even begin to think of forever. Or even tomorrow. My mind is still caught in the what I'm losing way of thinking. But I am learning that each day I don't use makes it more possible for me not to use again when the thoughts and cravings come up. I'm just going on faith, hope, the experience of others that I will get to the place where I want to be.
Forever does seem daunting, I guess not just with alcohol but with many things, a day at a time I can do though
I always acknowledge the "voice" "beast" whatever, when it rears it's ugly head and for each day of sober time I have behind me I have controlled the impulse when I feel it, I guess I was just hoping eventually it will disappear but I'm sure as time goes by it will fade and I can live with that
thanks guys, I appreciate the feedback
I always acknowledge the "voice" "beast" whatever, when it rears it's ugly head and for each day of sober time I have behind me I have controlled the impulse when I feel it, I guess I was just hoping eventually it will disappear but I'm sure as time goes by it will fade and I can live with that
thanks guys, I appreciate the feedback
Join Date: Aug 2011
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The concept of "never" is not daunting to me at all. It is, like xune said, liberating. It is where I find peace.
Another member says the question of drinking has been asked and answered. (thanks OTT ) Asked and answered...I love that. I mean really what the hell else do I need to think about it? It will always be a resounding NO. Anything else is just placating my beast. And while the thoughts of "just for today" will keep my beast calm....for me it's just a dangerous head game. The truth is I'll never drink and that makes *me* happy and calm.
Another member says the question of drinking has been asked and answered. (thanks OTT ) Asked and answered...I love that. I mean really what the hell else do I need to think about it? It will always be a resounding NO. Anything else is just placating my beast. And while the thoughts of "just for today" will keep my beast calm....for me it's just a dangerous head game. The truth is I'll never drink and that makes *me* happy and calm.
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Join Date: Dec 2011
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Hello Jungle Girl:
Early in sobriety I came to grips with the fact that drinking wasn't my real problem... living sober was.
After a couple of years in AA I remember the feeling of "Holy $hit, this is for life" coming over me but by that time I knew booze/drugs wasn't the answer and being comfortable with the fact that I shouldn't drink again (any more than I should entertain the idea of french kissing a cobra).
Now what do I do to get comfortable in my own skin sober ??!! .. I chose AA as a program of recovery.
It works for me.
I hope you have Googled and read AA's "The Doctors Opinion", "How It Works" and "The Promises of Alcoholics Anonymous". See if you can identify.
All the best.
Bob R.
Early in sobriety I came to grips with the fact that drinking wasn't my real problem... living sober was.
After a couple of years in AA I remember the feeling of "Holy $hit, this is for life" coming over me but by that time I knew booze/drugs wasn't the answer and being comfortable with the fact that I shouldn't drink again (any more than I should entertain the idea of french kissing a cobra).
Now what do I do to get comfortable in my own skin sober ??!! .. I chose AA as a program of recovery.
It works for me.
I hope you have Googled and read AA's "The Doctors Opinion", "How It Works" and "The Promises of Alcoholics Anonymous". See if you can identify.
All the best.
Bob R.
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