Cant keep doing this!
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Cant keep doing this!
I hate feeling powerless. I get so good at control - 8 days pass and wham I get offered a drink and think "I can handle this" and of course I can't. So I haven't been going to metings this entire year - since the new year is almost here I am starting on this forum.
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Welcome to SR cynjy!
Lot's of people for support and encouragement! I could only handle the moderation for a while then quickly spiraled downhill.
Since you've gone to meetings in the past, you should pick up on them again and make a game plan. Also, read, post and converse through the threads - it's a good eye opener. Many, many of us have been where you're at.
Good luck!
Lot's of people for support and encouragement! I could only handle the moderation for a while then quickly spiraled downhill.
Since you've gone to meetings in the past, you should pick up on them again and make a game plan. Also, read, post and converse through the threads - it's a good eye opener. Many, many of us have been where you're at.
Good luck!
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Join Date: Dec 2011
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Originally Posted by cynjy 
I hate feeling powerless. I get so good at control - 8 days pass and wham I get offered a drink and think "I can handle this" and of course I can't. So I haven't been going to metings this entire year - since the new year is almost here I am starting on this forum.
I'm not quite sure what your post is saying ......
I hate feeling powerless too but I am.
You don't sound like the control thing is all that good.
Why did you quit going to the meetings? Are things better now that you quit?
What do you expect to find here that you couldn't find at the meetings?
All the best.
Bob R
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Welcome to a great place, cynjy. With the support and encouragement of the people here I was able to stop drinking after almost 30 yrs. It was wonderful to not feel alone anymore.
I always thought I could use willpower to control myself - but it never happened. I had no choice but to stop forever. I feel so free now. You will too.
I always thought I could use willpower to control myself - but it never happened. I had no choice but to stop forever. I feel so free now. You will too.
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I am definitely not powerless, but I view things very differently now. I was a huge control-freak in all areas of my life. And, I was sure that I could control my alcohol consumption and I spent months and months determined to do that. I have the power to not take the first drink, ever. If I do, I lose control. I've learned the only thing I can control in my life is my reactions to what is happening in my life. The rest just is.
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I hated the idea of feeling powerless too, so I took absolute control of my life back, I took it away from alcohol. My resolve is stronger than any thought and I deserve to have a life with its fair measure of peace and joy. So I quit drinking. You can do it too.
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