11 months yesterday!
11 months yesterday!
And things are going great! Even with my husband's neck surgery, and me almost being fired.
I got another job, and quit my job before they fired me. It's been really sad for me, and hard to separate ME from the job, i.e., telling myself I'm not a failure because they wanted to fire me. It's hard not to take those things personally.
Now that I've finished my last day, I find myself looking forward. I think a lot of my struggle with my job is not being able to go with the flow. Not being able to control it. I wanted to quit my job on my terms, not theirs! It just didn't go according to my plan.
Fear is my greatest character defect. I know this now. I have allowed it to control many of my decisions and I still do. I have a hard time doing anything without first asking my husband's or someone else's opinion. I was so afraid to leave my job, but also afraid they'd fire me any day! (A confidante told me they were planning on firing me, she was in on the talks).
So I've got one more month to go, and then I will be one of those persons raising my hand at meetings, offering to be a sponsor. I was told my first year would be all about me, and I love that. But next year it'll be all about others.
Thanks SR and everyone on here who's supported me at the beginning of my journey, when I began posting seriously about quitting, this exact time last year, and all who've supported me throughout my sometimes rocky journey this year. Love you all.
I got another job, and quit my job before they fired me. It's been really sad for me, and hard to separate ME from the job, i.e., telling myself I'm not a failure because they wanted to fire me. It's hard not to take those things personally.
Now that I've finished my last day, I find myself looking forward. I think a lot of my struggle with my job is not being able to go with the flow. Not being able to control it. I wanted to quit my job on my terms, not theirs! It just didn't go according to my plan.
Fear is my greatest character defect. I know this now. I have allowed it to control many of my decisions and I still do. I have a hard time doing anything without first asking my husband's or someone else's opinion. I was so afraid to leave my job, but also afraid they'd fire me any day! (A confidante told me they were planning on firing me, she was in on the talks).
So I've got one more month to go, and then I will be one of those persons raising my hand at meetings, offering to be a sponsor. I was told my first year would be all about me, and I love that. But next year it'll be all about others.
Thanks SR and everyone on here who's supported me at the beginning of my journey, when I began posting seriously about quitting, this exact time last year, and all who've supported me throughout my sometimes rocky journey this year. Love you all.
Hey everyone, thanks for all the well wishes.
To those who asked, AA was my solution. I had tried countless times before, but everytime 5PM rolled around I found myself at the bar. When I decided to quit for good, I told my husband I had a serious problem, and was serious about quitting for good, something I've never really admitted to him before.
I asked him to remove the booze from our house when I wasn't around, and then I went to AA and never looked back. I did just about everything suggested, got a sponsor, did the 12 steps. I met with her once per week, every week. And now that we've gone through the steps, I don't formally meet with her but I make a point of either talking with her or another alcoholic several times per week. I attend AA mtgs almost every day of the week, an average of 6 times per week.
I read every morning from the Daily Reflections. Every night I either write or reflect upon my day, my conduct. I volunteer regularly, and on a day to day basis, I try to look outside of myself and see how I can help others. Even tiny things like forgiving the guy who cut me off in traffic are a good gesture. When I slip up and act like a witch to someone, I try very hard to apologize as soon as I realize it. I spend a lot of time self-reflecting, and trying to live in the moment. I was so serious before, so now I try hard to laugh more and relax. It comes a lot easier to me now. And the deep dark pit of sadness I had before is gone.
You can click on my name and see my posts from last year. I struggled a lot, I didn't like what a lot of people said to me here, but they were all right.
Good luck to everyone out there on SR - life is so much better on this side.
To those who asked, AA was my solution. I had tried countless times before, but everytime 5PM rolled around I found myself at the bar. When I decided to quit for good, I told my husband I had a serious problem, and was serious about quitting for good, something I've never really admitted to him before.
I asked him to remove the booze from our house when I wasn't around, and then I went to AA and never looked back. I did just about everything suggested, got a sponsor, did the 12 steps. I met with her once per week, every week. And now that we've gone through the steps, I don't formally meet with her but I make a point of either talking with her or another alcoholic several times per week. I attend AA mtgs almost every day of the week, an average of 6 times per week.
I read every morning from the Daily Reflections. Every night I either write or reflect upon my day, my conduct. I volunteer regularly, and on a day to day basis, I try to look outside of myself and see how I can help others. Even tiny things like forgiving the guy who cut me off in traffic are a good gesture. When I slip up and act like a witch to someone, I try very hard to apologize as soon as I realize it. I spend a lot of time self-reflecting, and trying to live in the moment. I was so serious before, so now I try hard to laugh more and relax. It comes a lot easier to me now. And the deep dark pit of sadness I had before is gone.
You can click on my name and see my posts from last year. I struggled a lot, I didn't like what a lot of people said to me here, but they were all right.
Good luck to everyone out there on SR - life is so much better on this side.
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So Happy Happy 11 months... It has just been awesome to be here and watch your jounrney....
I couldnt be happier for your growth... Keep living the dream and stay on the beam
Good love , Inda
So Happy Happy 11 months... It has just been awesome to be here and watch your jounrney....
I couldnt be happier for your growth... Keep living the dream and stay on the beam
Good love , Inda
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