A good exercise to help me stay in recovery
 

A good friend that had over a year and half picked up a white chip last night. I went with her to be of support. It scared me very much. I am approaching 60 days, will have it on December 5.

I sat down and wrote out what would unfold if I took one sip of alcohol. That is how it starts for me. I take one sip of my husband's liquor and it sets off a chain of events. I keep on sipping it until it is obvious by the bottle that I have. Then I fill it with water. Then I get paranoid he will find out so I go to the liquor store to replace it, and while I am there I get more for me.

All of these horrible things will happen and I will be so full of anxiety that I feel like I am going to die. And the guilt will be overwhelming. My work and school will suffer. My husband will suffer. I will have to pick up yet another white chip.

All of those things will happen if I take ONE SIP.

It is a good reminder of where alcohol will take me. It will take me to my knees.

I think I will stay sober today and be so grateful for it.

Are you working the steps with a sponsor Elisabeth?

I know damn well if I pick up another drink or drug that I will either die, get sectioned or end up in prison. I didn't end up in prison or a mental hospital. I came close to death. But I know if I pick up that is where I am going. It's a logical progression for my disease.

Natom.

I am. Writing step 4 now.