courage2

Hello everyone. I'm trying to get through today without a drink. So far it's been about 2 hours since the time of day i usually start drinking. seems like a long 2 hours. i've been drinking for 35 years (I'm 50 now) with a brief stop while i was pregnant, and i've been drinking 1/4 to 1/3 liter of gin a day for about the last 6 months, and if i don't quit it's going to kill my stomach. but i'm a bit afraid of losing my mind without the booze ....

i hope this is a good place to talk & listen.

MycoolFitz

2 hours is 2 hours everyone starts at the beginning. Welcome to SR keep coming back. It works

Rose2012

I was taking things one hour at a time on Day 1, Day 2 was okay, I was really busy and convinced I didn't have a problem, Day 3 I derailed and nearly lost my mind, but didn't drink...now it's Day 4 and I'm in full hate mode. Bad mood, want to drink, defiant etc...back to taking things one hour at a time.

35 years is a long time...I also have stomach problems, and any more alcohol will really mess me up. You can do this, just keep doing things one hour at a time...it's not easy, but you can do it!

Dominica2

Welcome to SR! You CAN do this!

MycoolFitz

I drank most of 50 years you would not to meet my stomach. It can be done, millions have gone before us. All care.

courage2

Thank you all for your good wishes. i'm not so much afraid of the physical withdrawal as afraid of myself sober -- dislike of that person was probably what got me started (that and my family of drunks!

-- i used to like my drunk self but now it's all just pretty lonely and full of pain guilt & lies.

MIRecovery

Drank a fifth a day for 20 years + assorted drugs. It can be done and you will do it!

doggonecarl

Welcome to SR.

Thirty years drinking? You don't even know yourself sober. Time to get acquainted. I think you'll like what you find.

Dee74

Welcome Courage

It is a little daunting for sure - but you're not alone here.
I got sober after 20 years - I haven't regretted it for a minute

D

serious

you can certainly do it. you have the chance to be sober and love it... i really don't think you'll have any regrets (maybe that you haven't done it sooner).

courage2

thank you! my brain is playing crazy tricks on me -- like i just actually did 1/2 hour of work & so i should reward myself with a drink. i can't tell you how many days i've woken up saying "day 1" and bought a bottle on the way to the office....

Impurrfect

Welcome to SR ((courage))!

Hugs and prayers,

Amy