Newbie, Day 1
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: England, UK
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Newbie, Day 1
Hello,
Wow! What a relief to find a site like this... feels like a weight off my shoulders being able to talk to people!
I've just popped into the chat room, and have to say a big thanks to Peaches, Jjjr, Photonic, boonut - and anybody I've forgotten (sorry!) for their lovely welcome and kind words!
I won't prattle on too much, other than to say I'm male, 40+ years old, have a wonderful wife and kid, but battled with depression, stress and anxiety for as long as I can remember. Quite often without any direct/identifiable cause.
Recently I have been absolutely caning it on the booze more and more - to the point that I have finally decided to admit I have a problem and do something about it! For that I am glad.
I, like many of you I'm sure, have made many false starts over the years - usually prompted by a hangover or realisation of having done something bad the night before.
Is this time different? I guess something is different in that I am openly talking about my dependency and problems.
And I am every so grateful for this web site being here to give me that opportunity to do so.
So... Day 1!
Thanks for your time, and I look forward to talking to many of you.
G.x
Wow! What a relief to find a site like this... feels like a weight off my shoulders being able to talk to people!
I've just popped into the chat room, and have to say a big thanks to Peaches, Jjjr, Photonic, boonut - and anybody I've forgotten (sorry!) for their lovely welcome and kind words!
I won't prattle on too much, other than to say I'm male, 40+ years old, have a wonderful wife and kid, but battled with depression, stress and anxiety for as long as I can remember. Quite often without any direct/identifiable cause.
Recently I have been absolutely caning it on the booze more and more - to the point that I have finally decided to admit I have a problem and do something about it! For that I am glad.
I, like many of you I'm sure, have made many false starts over the years - usually prompted by a hangover or realisation of having done something bad the night before.
Is this time different? I guess something is different in that I am openly talking about my dependency and problems.
And I am every so grateful for this web site being here to give me that opportunity to do so.
So... Day 1!
Thanks for your time, and I look forward to talking to many of you.
G.x
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Welcome Goth! I was so relieved when I found this place - I wasn't alone any more. My anxiety lessened a lot when I was able to relate to others who had been where I was. No one in my life really understood about addictions.
Glad to have you with us - you sound very determined and positive. A new life awaits.
Glad to have you with us - you sound very determined and positive. A new life awaits.
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Thanks again everybody!
Day 2 - First Sober Morning
Emotions: Happy, Excited, Nervous
Energy Levels: Tired
I slept in this morning! Woke up without a dry mouth and headache though, nice start!
I do have butterflies in my stomach though, and feel a little wobbly both physically and emotionally. I want to take some time off work, I don't know why... just feel like feeling if that makes sense rather than go through the automaton mode of working... but maybe working is a good thing at the moment; keep my mind busy.
10:18am UK time... a cup of coffee sounds like a good idea :-)
l8rs,
G.x
Day 2 - First Sober Morning
Emotions: Happy, Excited, Nervous
Energy Levels: Tired
I slept in this morning! Woke up without a dry mouth and headache though, nice start!
I do have butterflies in my stomach though, and feel a little wobbly both physically and emotionally. I want to take some time off work, I don't know why... just feel like feeling if that makes sense rather than go through the automaton mode of working... but maybe working is a good thing at the moment; keep my mind busy.
10:18am UK time... a cup of coffee sounds like a good idea :-)
l8rs,
G.x
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: UK
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Originally Posted by OldGoth 
Thanks again everybody!
Day 2 - First Sober Morning
Emotions: Happy, Excited, Nervous
Energy Levels: Tired
I slept in this morning! Woke up without a dry mouth and headache though, nice start!
I do have butterflies in my stomach though, and feel a little wobbly both physically and emotionally. I want to take some time off work, I don't know why... just feel like feeling if that makes sense rather than go through the automaton mode of working... but maybe working is a good thing at the moment; keep my mind busy.
10:18am UK time... a cup of coffee sounds like a good idea :-)
l8rs,
G.x
Day 2 - First Sober Morning
Emotions: Happy, Excited, Nervous
Energy Levels: Tired
I slept in this morning! Woke up without a dry mouth and headache though, nice start!
I do have butterflies in my stomach though, and feel a little wobbly both physically and emotionally. I want to take some time off work, I don't know why... just feel like feeling if that makes sense rather than go through the automaton mode of working... but maybe working is a good thing at the moment; keep my mind busy.
10:18am UK time... a cup of coffee sounds like a good idea :-)
l8rs,
G.x
I have 280 days and the sleep is still phenomenal!
In my drinking days, I would wake up about 4.00am and my heart would be pounding, I would feel nervous and on edge. It was no way to live.
You might feel tired for a while. Booze has a lot of calories in it, that kept many of us going. And we never slept right through all that drinking. Passing out cold is not the same as 10 hours natural sleep.
There is a saying in AA called HALT - it takes about not getting too Hungry, Angry, Lonely or Tired. Thats when having a drink might filter into your mind.
So eat well. Eat lots to replace those missing calories. Even keep some boiled sweets handy if you have a sugar dip or craving. And keep hydrated so drink lots of alcohol free clear fluid.
Personally, if it was me and I was physically able, I would keep going to work.
It would keep me in a routine, stop me sleeping during the day, keep me occupied and my mind busy and keep the loneliness away. But thats just me, so whatever you decided to do is best for you.
I have kept checking all morning to see if you had posted. I was so hopeful that you had a good nights sleep and felt better this morning and you did!!
Keep updating here and let us know how you are going.
Xxx
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What a lovely message, thank you ever so much Sasha!
Yes, I completely identify with the 4am wake-ups whilst drinking - the heart pounding was getting worse and was scaring me.
HALT is good - I hope/believe that this community will help with the L part, and great tips about the hunger part. I am partial to chocolate it must be said.
I'm on my lunch-break now, so will have a read around and post over in the November thread too
Thanks again.x
Yes, I completely identify with the 4am wake-ups whilst drinking - the heart pounding was getting worse and was scaring me.
HALT is good - I hope/believe that this community will help with the L part, and great tips about the hunger part. I am partial to chocolate it must be said.
I'm on my lunch-break now, so will have a read around and post over in the November thread too
Thanks again.x
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Join Date: May 2009
Location: UK
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Hi goth, this place is full of likeminded inviduals trying to get and stay sober
Have you looked into AA by any chance ? That will help the L part of HALT and you never know, might hear something you can relate to
Keep posting mate, it helps to get it out
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Have you looked into AA by any chance ? That will help the L part of HALT and you never know, might hear something you can relate to
Keep posting mate, it helps to get it out
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