Enough!
 

I am so damn tired of considering what the hell is wrong all the time.

F all that crap.

What's right? What's good? What going to make me smile? How can I make you smile?

I am not talking about being grateful. That's just an inventory of reminders to look up.

I am talking about putting my energies into finding the best parts of me.

If i trip over something I don't like along the way, so what! I don't have to stop and sniff it.

I am bound to find sh!t in a garden!

What was the last thing I did good?

What was the last good thing I did?

I will start there.

Hi weas!
I'm sorry you are having a craptastic day.
Nothing is really wrong? You just are mixing it up. What are the most awesome parts of your life?

I have the bad habit of focusing on negativity too, Weasel. I'm trying to work on it. It gets very old.

Yep...and if you think about it, sh*t grows beautiful flowers.

It's all about perception.

I can really relate to your post. This sobriety stuff is uncharted territory for me and relearning how to live is soooooo tiring sometimes. Sobriety is wonderful but it is a lot of work. Just when you get one thing figured out something else pops up.

All I have is today so I just try to do the next right thing and try not to get over whelmed.

Actually this post comes from a happy place.

Just looking forward to a warm sober holiday. The last 10 or so have been marred. Crack on Xmas morning. A cold turkey in the oven cuz I never got around to cooking it. Was drunk already.

Like I said. A happy place. Lol

My sobriety is only the first small gift I can give myself this year. The big gift is liking myself.

well, then this thread can be changed to Postive Biotching???

good for you, enjoy the turkey!

Your post reminded me of a quote I found months ago:
Life is hard and it's messy (as you said!), but once you accept that and learn how to be your own best friend, it's a lot easier.

Have a good day!